1.27.2006

i miss...

my bed.
my teddy bear, Lei.
my goldfish, Goldie.
my dog, Chopper. (who almost chopped my hand)
my friends in the neighborhood.
my christmas gifts. (never went to godparents)
my fireworks.
my elf.
my guildmates.
my allies.
him.
and him.

I feel so crappy it confuses me. I find myself wondering why the hell am I thinking like this... weird. Just weird.

My world... spinnin' round and round... Did I miss a beat?

This is definitely one of the worst moments of my blogging life. If not the worst. It's so bad, I can't find the words to explain it! CRAP! >.<

1.11.2006

Time passes so quickly before you realize it.

And when you lose track of time, you can't help but be left behind.
When you're left behind, you tend to think back.
Think of past mistakes... Wallow in your thoughts and regret.
... and end up never advancing at all.
That's where I am now.
Lost in time.
And there are too many doors of opportunity (and misfortune) for me to choose from.

It's too bad I wasn't able to update this blog around say... January 1 or 2. I sure would've been able to put a happy post. But now that I lost my New Year cheers (and of course, not as much customers as I had this past holiday), I have enough time to cook up something *good* to start my new year as a neko blogger.

Here's a list of stuff I wanna do this year: (these are not resolutions, coz I'm not one to follow my resolutions, it's just stupid)
1. apply for a non-pro license
2. go on a serious diet (WTF?)
3. go back to school
4. beg my parents to apply for Smart WiFi or PLDT myDSL
5. try playing Guild Wars (if I ever get a CD installer, that is)
6. try playing RF Online (same as above)
7. train my tongue to get less twisted when speaking my other languages... say, straight English? =.=
8. buy new clothes
9. in relation to 8, learn how to carry a skirt. even a long one. just for a friggin' day. without kickin' butt!! XD
10. eat my brother Tuna alive. WHAT? I'm a cat. Sue me. >:D
11. kill **** /gg
12. get a life, for me and my brother Tuna (know anyone selling? tax free and all amenities paid for? O_o)
13. maybe find my sanity and stop playing innocent

Errr... That's a friggin bad number. Lemme add something later... If I can think of one. X_x

Anyway for those people who frequent my blog and watch my exploits written down not-so-neatly, thanks. I appreciate the concern. Thanks to a few gracious people my daddy pays to talk to me (well my cellphone number IS postpaid, so he pays the bills, hahaha!), I was able to get through the rough holidays partly still sane. It really works wonders... This voice chat thing. *worship Y!M OMG!* XD

Oh yeah, I remembered this! Another one for the list!14. find my student permit first before i do #2

Wahahaha! XD

About the post title... Hmm. I'm in too good a mood to start blabbering about it. Lemme savor this moment of bliss for a few more hours... ^_^;

(this post was created january 5, i just got too busy to log back in and actually post it. T_T)