2.26.2007

Blogging with Audi

Tomorrow I start working on my Audition post, filled with my in-game screenies that tell many different stories.



Not for the faint of heart, nor for morons >:)


Me no likey preview, it'll destroy the fun. >:)



[Edit 03/01/2007: Delayed due to situations in-game. *SIGH*]
[Edit 03/08/2007: Replaced Imeem playlist with my own. Song titles arranged in alphabetical order for easier browsing. :3]
*still no new post, wtf o.O*

2.25.2007

Lack of love is fatal...

Now playing: Your Guardian Angel - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus


To be honest, I really am not in the mood to be updating this. I just have this feeling in me that I have to at least document this day.

For the very first time in 2 years, I have felt like shit for more than half a day.





It's funny they say that it's cute to watch two people denying their feelings for each other. But guess what... That's comedy TV. Today I witnessed a worse replay of my last love story, complete with a death note and the usual heart burn it causes me.

From her point of view: she wants out, she doesn't want to fall for him.
From his point of view: confused and hurt by the sudden outcome.

From her point of view: she wants to stop while it's 'not too late'.
From his point of view: this may be his end; not theirs but just his.. death?


Was he just led on?

Were her intentions misinterpreted?

Who's in denial?


The only thing worse than being him or her is being stuck in between. That's where I am right now. The only comfort in that is the fact that there are two of us common friends that mourn this unexpected turn of events.

What a cruel twist of fate....

As if I didn't have enough problems in my own life. :(


Guys, please stop making each other suffer... it hurts me. It hurts us too. ;_;

2.12.2007

Goodbye, Noreen (Jeong Da-bin)


March 4, 1980 - February 10, 2007

Do you know this girl?

If not, try to remember Attic Cat.

Still no? Remember My 19-year old Sister-in-Law.

.....


I can't believe she's really gone.





I read this on the Soompi Forums. (you need to be a registered member in order to see the threads)


SEOUL, Feb. 10 (Yonhap) -- South Korean actress Jeong Da-bin was found dead early Saturday in what seems to have been a suicide due to depression, according to police and her acquaintances.

Police officials said Jeong, 27, was found hanged in a bathroom of her boyfriend's house in Seoul around 7:50 a.m. The boyfriend, identified only by his surname Lee, said he took Jeong back to his house because she got drunk while hanging out with friends at a nearby bar.

The police suspect that she committed suicide considering there was no sign of murder, and are trying to determine the exact circumstances of her death.

Observers say Jeong seems to have been suffering from depression, citing comments she posted recently on her personal blog.

A message she posted on Friday, titled "Finished," said, "I'm complicated and I feel like I'm going to die...I have lost my identity."


Screenshots of her personal blog:

You can read the translation here.
(There's actually a better translation I read somewhere else, but my mind's gone kind of blank right now.)

What is happening to the world!? It's almost Valentines and she decides to commit suicide?! No way. I won't believe it. Apparently, even other Korean stars refuse to accept it. Kevin (Kim Rae-Won) immediately cancelled his shootings and flew home from Thailand as soon as he heard the news. I saw his pictures during the funeral, and he looked deathly pale. In an interview, he was reportedly heard saying "Da bin, I'm sorry, I was late." Oh good Lord...

I sense foul play. -_- Read this article, where her company denies the possibility of suicide. Click Me

For those who do not wish to be bothered by registering in Soompi, here is the article I linked above.

-o-

Jung Dabin's Company claims that JDB's death is not suicide and is requesting for reinvestigation.

The decedent's company Sedona Media held a press conference on the 11th at 3:30PM at Seoul Ahsan Hospital and clarified all of the suspicions made by the media about the sucide attempt and company problems. They also said "The decedent's death is not a suicide."

Sedona Media's Director Park Hyun said "There was no reason why the decedent would have committed suicide. All of the problems was getting solved and there is no reason why she would have committed suicide. She made appointments to meet her friends and she had plans to go on a trip with Jung SunHee and other celebs."

Director Park claims that evidence that it is not a suicide is, 1. The fact that she tried to committ suicide last September is a lie and was proved by her family and acquaintances, 2. Jung Dabin wasn't drunk on the day of the accident, 3. There was 2 months left until her former manager gets sued, 4. The problems with her former company has been solved, 5. she made appointments with many acquaintances.

Regarding her boyfriend's statement "She tried to committ suicide 5 months ago" Sedona Media said "As it was revealed at the Police Station, the boyfriend lied. The decedent got the wound on her wrist when she was in her 1st year of highschool."

"The decedent wasn't drunk at the time of the accident."

Director Park Hyun said "The decedent wasn't very drunk on the day of the accident."

Director Park said "There are no traces that the decedent drank alcohol at her boyfriend's house. The day before the accident Jung Dabin with 4 people including her boyfriend shared 6 bottles of Soju and beer. Jung Dabin paid the bill and there was an employee's statement that she wasn't very drunk."

"She made appointments with acquaintances and showed desire in new pieces."

The decedent's company says Jung Dabin made hospital appointments with close acquaintances and promised to go on a trip so there is no reason why she committed suicide.

Director Park Hyun said "The day before the accident at 11PM she called a close unnie. On the 12th she made an appointment to go to a dermatologist and showed desire in picking her next work."

Also "She was planning to go on a trip with Jung Sunhee. She made appointments to meet with the people she drank with again 2 days later."

"She showed disappointment towards Unee's suicide...the note on her Mini Hompy is not a suicide note."

Director Park Hyun said "Regarding Unee's suicide Jung Dabin talked about how suicide was bad with her cordinator and her boyfriend. She said 'I will never committ suicide and try to live harder.' and expressed her disappointment."

They revealed the post she put up the day before she died wasn't a suicide note.

Director Park said "After Jung Dabin died and people saw her post it became an suicide note. I wonder if Jung Dabin didn't die, would it have been considered a suicide note. That post is not a note that hinted of her suicide."

"The problems with her former company, it was almost solved."

Sedona Media claimed the problems with her former company was almost solved.

Director Park said "There was 2 months left until her former manager was going to be sued, the lawsuits with her former company one was decided as immaterial and the other one was decided as compensation. Everything was getting solved smoothly."

"To an actor 1 year and 6 months isn't a long time. Jung Dabin's next work was decided already so there is no reason why she would have committed suicide."

Besides this her company said she loved her family a lot, her next work was decided and she was in the middle of picking other pieces too.

"Just because there is no evidence of murder we can't be sure its suicide. The murder can be disguised as suicide and if Jung Dabin did commit suicide she probably had a reason why had to do it."

-o-

I might post updates on the investigation later within the week, for the sake of those without Soompi accounts. (o^_^o)



Our lives are affected by the decision we make. Most of the time, it is the smallest things that make the biggest impact. In the event that this incident is decided as suicide, I cry for her. She took her life just because she doesn't have work? What a petty excuse.

You need courage to live in the world, you prove your inner strength by facing the challenges thrown at you. You accept them, you battle your uncertainties, and if needed you have friends that are willing to help you. Even in the darkest of days, there'll always come a time that you'll glimpse a ray of light. It'll all end soon... or later.

You're not supposed to give up!

Just because of this, she might never see paradise. (I remember that if you take your own life, you will never be able to go to Heaven ) BUT if it is proven to be murder.....

DAMN YOU TO HELL YOU PSYCHO!!! Whoever you are! I'll wring your neck when I see you! Ipapakulam talaga kitaaaaa!!!


*heave* *wheeze* *cough cough*


... *sigh*
I bet 10 cents saying the boyfriend was an accomplice. -_-


This was supposed to be a happy post because I was able to put up a temporary soundbox on my blog (see Siren's Isle section, below Tagboard) but... alas.


My Tribute to Da-Bin: "Alone" by Shimokawa Mikuni [Lyrics]

Note: Pause the autoplay soundbox below the tagboard so as not to make the tracks overlap each other.

...And a photo video made by a Youtube member.


I've searched for pieces of myself,
counting the endless nights all the while.
These feelings are becoming so certain
I almost lose myself.

Right now, without fail, I will walk forward, however far.

2.06.2007

Assorted Ravings and my Lucky Thousandth Visitor

Ohh I have a TON of updates today! It's gonna be one heck of a roller coaster ride (literally). I'll classify the updates accordingly, so start on the heading you're interested in. You can skip whatever part you don't wanna read about.

Anime -- Ranma 1/2 and Shakugan no Shana
Today I realized (for perhaps the 3rd time) that I didn't know how Ranma 1/2 ended. (1) I don't watch each episode; (2) I have better things to do on my PC, and (3) I got used to Ranma and Akane's bickering (redundancy). I read a review (the link is up there *points above this bunch of text*) of Volume 36, the last volume of the manga, where it is described that Ranma and Akane had a happy (yet uncertain) ending. Nyuuu~ I didn't want Ranma to get married. ;_;

Anyway while reading Wikipedia's entry on Ranma 1/2, I decided to scan through the manga characters where I found Shirokuro, Ryoga (aka P-chan) Hibiki's family pet. I was rather intrigued by the Trivia part, where it was stated that the dog's breed can either be Akita Inu or Samoyed. I dare say she's an Akita, judging from her appearance (the ears and big, fluffy tail) and her temperament (the only family member with a sense of direction, and stays at home cleaning (!) the house and taking care of her puppies). Needless to say I read into the Akita section and found Hachiko (the loyal dog, he's very well known in Shibuya ^^), and I read a lot of stuff on InuYasha as well. (they did say here that his ears look like that of an Akita's XD)

This browsing lead me to the second of the series featured here, which is Shakugan no Shana. Rumiko Takahashi, creator of Inuyasha and other famous series such as Urusei Yatsura and Ranma 1/2, stated that the lead characters of both series have various similarities. I eventually had to explore the entry and while reading the plot summary, I found this quote:

Infinite time stops its heartbeat, and people are soundlessly consumed by fire. Not a single soul notices as the world becomes dislocated, and is engulfed in the flames of the Crimson Realm.

— Alastor

Mmm. Love these stuff. I think I'll have something to read for the next few weeks now. I smell a next anime review. ^_^
(for more information on the series, please click the link given above for its Wikipedia entry.)


Friends -- Going International
Since I started playing online games (and even as early as 1999 when I got addicted to mIRC) I have met several people living overseas who have eventually become my friends, and in some instances, friends of my other friends. This also counts people I get to chat with on Y!M and those I get to talk to in the different forums I visit. Veteran visitors of my blog might remember me crediting YouTube members, forumers, guildmates and many more, but at the moment, I would only be talking about 2 people.

Ikarius - he is/was a Polish player whom I met in early 2005 on the MMORPG, MU Online Philippines. He was the guild leader of the now defunct Najebka guild. They merged in with my guild, the Holy Order of the Light, and that's when we (and a few other Polish members) became close friends. A very level-headed and approachable person, and he has very good English skills too. I gave him the nickname "master noob wiz", a pet name I think is for my exclusive use. LOL. He was one of the few people to first reach level 300 in MU Philippines' Bahr server. He was also very well known by the community not only because he's a foreigner, but because he can be a very good friend.

I hope I can talk to him again somehow, because the sacred creature of my goddess alter ego in EiC will be named in his honor. I do hope he'll approve. :3

Konstantin - if you scan the previous posts on my Tagboard, you won't miss him. He is a Russian-born guy who now resides in Germany (I interviewed him on that XD). I gave him the lyrics for three of Origa's songs, which contained Russian text, its romanized lines and their English translations. I enjoy talking to him on e-mail at present, and he recently helped me in a VERY big way by romanizing 'player' and 'date of rebirth'. (you can read more about this on my Ghost in the Shell post)

I might post the lyrics after I edit some parts and translate it to fluid English. And who knows, maybe in the future, I might just as well dub the songs and post videos on Youtube. *sheepish grin* I wouldn't be able to do all this if it wasn't for Konstantin. Cheers for you mate! ^_^

This brings us into the next part of my post.


Music -- Origa & Audition Online OST
Since I have parts of the lyrics, I'm now looking into the possibility of obtaining the rap lyrics, which was performed by the singing duo Heartsdales. I'm not sure how I'll do this really, I was only able to catch parts of it. Well, we never do know what will happen. XD

I have also stated in a previous post that I really like playing Audition Online. I have also taken to downloading the songs in the game, and so far I've managed to compile 11 of them (I am very picky XD), which already includes Beat City and Dance Flower. If I have the chance I may post download links (or maybe even the MP3 files themselves) for easier access. :3


Online Gaming -- RAN PH Gangs
Three days ago my boyfriend and I decided to take the "Through the Tunnel" quest, better known as the TradingHole (TH) quest. Unfortunately for us, lag and a bug in the shaman's walking speed caused us to fail the quest. (I never should have put skill points there just yet! -_-) He died three times while I died twice. We got into a sort of bout since I got annoyed by his cursing and sworn off the damned quest, and it completely ruined my morning. I was really grumpy even with other people that day. ¬_¬; He did end up apologizing much later (around 3AM) but I was already royally pissed, albeit an I-am-not-in-the-mood-to-forgive mood. And so I carried the bad mood for the rest of the day.

Last night we went back to a much more normal status but I didn't say he was forgiven. (when people piss me off it takes some time for me to recover) I was shocked to hear him demand (as in demand) me to join the gang he will soon create. DUH! "Dude, I haven't even gotten over your last stint, now you have the guts to ask this kind of thing from me? WTF??" is what my brain automatically yelled. I know Netorious has all the potential to become big someday, and I also know it's a big deal for him of course, but at a time like this that my gang (the UP gang of Alab server, Phoenix school, RAN PH) is currently having a situation with its members, now is definitely not the time to leave. I did stress in telling him that I am not a deserter (hindi ako alaskador), and it would be hard for me to leave my friends behind. And another thing that really ticked me off is that he wants me to (temporarily) stand in for him when the time comes for him to work. And I thought I already told him I was a No Good (NG) leader. =_=

I would have berated him today if he had not told me he already joined UP Gang, with the consent of our master Roj, aka Sir_Mayhem. I asked permission yesterday on YM, but I didn't expect my bf to use my account and pretend to be me! @_@

I expect Roj to talk to him tomorrow, when he can play again. For now, I'll tend to the poor jerk and ask him if he's still vomiting blood. Nasty karma. ¬.¬


Personal Life -- The Doting Auntie
My brother, his girlfriend and their kid (duh, of course, my nephew!) came here last Feb. 4! I was sooo happy~ (due to exaggerated excitement, the author has experienced a lack of articulateness and chose a very simple word -- happy) It was a pity they only got to stay for 1 and a half hour. I wasn't even able to serve them snacks because my nephew was practically grabbing all of our attention. (sorry guys! ;_;)

My nephew's name is Keith Nigale Ilagan (meh, forgot Nica's surname x.x). Haha. Hope he doesn't misspell it someday. :P Now here're a few things I observed in my nephew:

  • He's a big kid considering he's turning 1 this February 19 (that's both in height and weight XD)
  • He has long, straight hair, chinky eyes and puffy cheeks! Cute~!
  • (good thing he doesn't look like his dad :P)
  • He likes kicking people. I just might teach him basic Tae kwon do. Muahahahaha!!
  • He likes watching commercials, but pays no attention to TV programs.
  • He likes Animal Planet! He was just sitting on his mom's lap the whole time! ^_^ (time to get cable brother dear. >:p
  • When the commercials end, he starts to squirm and escape his parents' grasps.
  • Ang likot nyaaaa! @_@
  • He's pretty strong for a small kid. I got a roundhouse kick while tucking him in his dad's arms and I remember it connected with my jaw. TT.TT
  • He drooled on my jogging pants that day. Nix did say he's a drooler. LMAO
  • He likes shiny things. You'll see evidence of that later. XD
  • The kid's gonna be a gamer someday! He totally liked watching a kid here playing O2Jam.
  • He's ticklish in that private area. Hahaha. XD

And now, here are the pictures!

Bad angle, it showed my bad teeth. XD Anyway we tried to catch him while he watches O2Jam, but he wasn't really smiling. And the lighting was all messed up! X3

By this time he noticed the moving box on my server PC (the capture box), and that's where he paid his attention now (lol, got bored of O2Jam XD) so we took a pic while he looked at my monitor. In this pic though, he looks constipated! @_@

My brother took this pic and it was an absolute worst. Nica attracted Kiel's attention with a gold CD while Kenny took the pic. When I saw the horrible angle, I squealed "you're a bad photographer!" with which he snapped back, "that's not even a real camera!" Hey, a webcam's still a camera dude. WebCAMERA. =_=

It's too bad we weren't able to capture those 2 moments when Kiel poked at my cheek in a loving way. So cute. I didn't even mind that my hair was a mess trying to get him to look at the cam. On second thought, even without the picture, the memory would forever be in my mind (and heart). :3

Oh, before the webcam shots we took pictures with my old Kodak. After the film gets developed I'll find a way to scan them and post them here as well. Watch out for them Nix! ^_^


The Thousandth Visitor -- I totally missed it!
Today I celebrate my 1,000th hit! Thank you for the continued patronage, though I have no idea who you people are. XD In reality, that wouldn't be the real thousandth visitor, since the blog existed so much earlier than the counter (for reference, see the blog footer).

A screenshot of my 1,001th hit... (that was me :P)

...and brainfreeze's comment. (haha)

I really am shocked but nevertheless thankful that my blog reached 1,000 hits within less than 2 months. I found it rather weird, but I liked it. I wish that 1,000th visitor lots of good fortune in 2007. Hey, Chinese New Year's coming up after all. ^_^ I also hope traffic in the site increases in the months to come, but I sure do hope people would bother introducing themselves on the Tagboard. Is that too much to ask? Lol.

I guess it's off to Neverland for me now. Heck, it took me 8 hours to finish this particular entry! Three words:










I was busy. (what were you thinking?! XD)

2.02.2007

Pictures Galore -- Super Inggo

Do you watch Super Inggo?

It's a bit late to do an intro on the series since it's about to finish soon anyway, but I'm not here to discuss the show. I'm here to feature the photos flashing during the ending song. Weee!

I got permission from the photographer, Mr. Dan Cercado (http://www.dcercado.tk/) to post a blog link here, and maybe a few preview shots.

A pic of the star of the show, Budong.

Jessa Blusa, one of the faculty members in the Power Academy.

Boy Bawang sits in a corner, reading. (ohhh cute! X3)

I want a picture of Empress Schuck (Ava Avanico)! She looked really cute in her shot. (bakit wala syang pic dun? T.T)

Anyway pass by the webbie if you want a glimpse of his other high-quality photos. He has one of the Prince of Darkness SMILING. omgwtfbbqsauce! Looked so cute. :3

I'm throwing in a fan-art of InuYasha kissing Kagome. I made an avatar out of it and am currently using it in the E-games Forums.

Nyuuu~! What are your hands DOING down there!? O_O;