3.31.2007

Fear and Anxiety -- An Average Kitty's Point of View


Pussyfierz First Club Event
~ THE LAST CAT STANDING ~

pAU (Audition Dance Battle Philippines)

April 1, 2007
Undaground Server
Channel 15
4PM

Do you have what it takes?



...I doubt my own ability here x__x


I'm going against a list of some of the toughest Kitties:
  • pussyfierRIC
  • pussyfierRIZ
  • pussyfierVOX
  • pussyfierPMJ
  • pussyfierTON
  • pussyfierZAT
  • pussyfierMEI <- me x_x
  • pussyfierCIS
  • pussyfierDEV
Certified umaw-mamaws.


I never should've gone for First Place if I knew the battle outline sooner. So unfair. -_- FU said "Maybe God put you there coz He knows you can manage"... Great... now I CAN'T back out. *_*

See this LINK for more details.

In other news, I went into another survey-answering spree early today, I think I used up 3 hours just answering those. LOL. Ansaya! Wahaha.. Just idling away the morning before I enter the dance floor. I had to hurry a bit since I wanted to reach Clubber status today, and I did. With a lil' help from Merwin and his army of PC's (teewai Mer! :3) and with reinforcement (without S) from Evespring, I got the required EXP for Licence by 7AM. But my mom already yelled for me to stop XD

I got Eve to finish up the remaining 800 points, but she didn't read my message that I wanted to take the Licence myself. No souvenir... no video... no replay... WAAAAAH! x_x" So now MEI's a certified Clubber. Yay~~ xDD Eve licenced her. Not so yay~~ @_@;;

I'm actually chatting with FU and WIL right now in a confe and calming myself down... I'll be singing Disenchanted by My Chemical Romance in a few minutes, so hopefully that can calm my nerves. Tomorrow I'll play my DEPAPEPE playlist and just relax, waiting for 4PM. Maybe that'll work too...

Wish me luck guys. Domo arigatou gozaimasu. Whatever happens, everyone's already a winner... I never expected to make it to the semi-finals at all... ~_~;

3.24.2007

So freakin sick with worry

Uri you better have a valid explanation for all this crap that's happening!!! T___T

First it's her...

Then it's HER...

Now it's HIM.



Do you plan to take them down one by one!?


CRAP!!!!! >_<

3.23.2007

In Memory of Her...

Paula Carlyn Lopez y Legazpi
March 31, 1990 - March 18, 2007

a.k.a.

IGN: cArLyNa



I will postpone my UPLB updates to give way for this one update. They can wait... Besides, HL hasn't given me a copy of our EB pic. ~_~

~*~*~

Currently Playing: Jewellery - Tonight

I first met her on Audition last month, probably around the same time I met rebkev. She was such a sweet girl. I could tell she was really kind. But I don't think we started out too good kasi she was somewhat aloof o.O knowing me, I'd still pursue of course. She warmed up to me later on so I guess that wasn't a waste of effort. ^_^

Days passed and we haven't been in much contact with each other. We see each other's characters in-game sometimes, but we seldom chat because she has her own group, and I have mine. Despite this, there was this small spark I sense when we see each other, a hint of a deep-rooted friendship. (well, I was hoping ^^)

-insert- No, this isn't shoujo ai. BUZZ OFF. -insert-

Around March 10 and the days after that, I heard and read stuff about rebkev, the guy I thought was her (in-game) boyfriend. I won't go into detail since I don't much about it myself. That's when I saw her post in the Pussyfierz thread. Alas, my name was there. O_O

Reduced size of her post

She remembered me! ^_^ It was only then I found out she's been going in and out of the hospital for a heavy reason. So I added her on my YM and the next day, we got to chat. (kulit na bata, gumagamit pa ng PC sa hospital kahit bawal)

...just a part of our last talk.


-insert- Been talking to WIL at this part of my post.
As he logged out a tear fell on my lips and I tasted it. Salty ~_~ -insert-



I really didn't know it would be the last time I'd be able to talk to her. If I did, sana nilubos lubos ko na. I could've encouraged her more. To hang on and trust the Lord to extend her life.

I regret not being able to be a better friend to her.


March 22, 2007; 11PM
I told Mecky that I'm about to have my last dance for the night. I was feeling sleepy and rather tired from the events of the day. I spent the first half of the day at UPLB, literally walking my papers. ~_~ I got home tired but accomplished. (I'll blog about this next time.) When I played, I got accussed of being a botter by an Amateur named howerr, and being at the level he/she is at, the rest of the people in the room assumed the same thing. Last I heard of him/her, he/she was still preaching about me being a bot. "Pussyfier pa man din... kahiya"

While at the lobby, Mecky told me to make the room, so I did, and I named it "last dance ~_~", he was even surprised that it had to be Couple Dance Mode. (ayaw mo? sows, gusto mo rin~ *grin* [joke~]) It took us a few minutes of waiting and inviting to proceed to dancing, and it just happened that I invited momoshiro09 because we lacked one guy to make 2 couples.

Momo asked me if anyone was piloting my character last Sunday. I told him no, I don't have pilots (and for me to entrust my account to a pilot would have a very big reason behind it). Then he asked me "alam nyo na po ba yung tungkol kay carlyna?"

I have a bad feeling about this. I tried to reason out with my brain and just said "inde. hanu? tungkol ba sa kanila ni rebkev?" "No," he said, "she passed away last Sunday"


...



Shock. And Disappointment.

I was in Denial of everything in my head for about two minutes. I felt Anger because of people who never made her life (even virtual life) any easier. Regret, because of a lot of things...

For a while there I didn't know what to do... until I saw the girl (mejcris) standing on the platform, waiting for the game to start. I said, "Momo, can you come down?"

In-game my hands were just pressing keys of their own accord until I realized they were having trouble with Chance. Talk about possessed. I didn't miss a turn, not even once, during this dance. Mecky did, just once. Rare feat. ~_~

[Edit: I watched the replay again. I turned Chance off pala even before the 2nd turn. I just remembered I was too disturbed to think of the opposite direction. ~_~ And I noticed Mecky didn't use Chance either. *sigh*]

Mecky and I were really depressed by the news. Know what?

We got 14 hearts.

And we dedicated it to her.
XIV-MEI CoupleD2 Replay


Bakit ngayon pa? ~_~


The room title... the unintentional invitation... the bad news... the dance and the result... Sis, did you mean to tell me more? About what?

...Or is this your doing, Uri?


I think I've had too much of divine intervention all my life. I can't think straight about this anymore... ~_~


Carlyn,
...I just wish we had the chance to meet earlier than this. For all we know, I may have passed by you when I walked the streets of Los BaƱos. We might've had a common friend.

You could've had me as a big sister. ~_~

Alas, God decided to call you back early. Seems He needs you to be in Heaven sooner than we thought. ~_~

Sana nababasa mo to. I miss you sis. I really do. :'(


**Last night I cried for about 30 minutes. I don't know. I just fell asleep holding my phone, halfway into composing a message for EDZ. I cried again today. ~_~**

3.16.2007

Clumsy Kitty Chronicles -- Amp***

Audition won't work on my server PC tonight so I decided to uninstall/re-install it. I didn't know the stupid uninstaller program would erase my replays AND screenshots along with the wretched program files. DAMNIT!!!


Sorry guys, no AudiBlog Post Part 2. =_=

3.12.2007

Everyday Living with Ming Ming -- and The AudiBlog Post (Part 1)

Look at those post dates. I've been busy since... wha? End of February? Too busy to post something new in this old blog. Poor bloggie. Here let mommie hug ya.. *hugs blog*

I've really been busy mainly because HS graduation's coming up, and the typing jobs just... kept piling in. In addition to that, MEI was assigned Club Forum Moderator, but the job's more than that now. When I started, it's just the club thread I was concerned with. Now I'm like the head of the HR Department, being a PR person for some people involved in issues, and have recently been called Edz' adviser by... Edz herself. Err. **blinks**

I think too much, huh? ...so now you know you're not the only one... *stares into space*


Mei: And I thought you were fed up with your previous job? Now you're at it again~ ^^


...yes, Mei just laughs at me and my melancholy. Sometimes, I guess I'm just too nosy. T_T


Cherry or Strawberry?
Earlier today I launched into survey mode, sending IM's to people asking this. 7PM and survey says:

Cherry - 7
Strawberry - 11
Undecided - 2

I'm still waiting for other people's responses ^^ I have to get a new lip balm soon... my poor lips keeps cracking at the oddest times, and summer's here too. >.>

I just hope they quit the side comments like "If you still can't decide, I'll donate my lips to you", "'lika dito, kiss ko yan" or "ako na lang magbabasa para sayo", I mean... WTF! Pffbt. -_-

...okay so it's kinda cute depending on who says it, but puh-lease. -_-;; (only applies to the 2nd comment)


On being single
Dudes, I never realized being single also had its downsides until a few days ago. You get a lot more hoots and remarks from guys. Even if it's just an online game. Friendster hoarding comments and testimonials of the sort... just leaving 'em there though, most of them that is. x_x

I'm beginning to think that more girls have to PLAY online games. These guys seem to think the only girls in this world are those who PLAY online games. -_- (redundancy galore!)

The side comments above, they're just the tip of the iceberg. I'm sure I'd be getting more soon. Pero wag naman sana...

People nowadays sure have weird taste. o.O


The "new" look?
Nothing much is new with the way I look. Really. Just longer hair that kinda sticks up at the end (I usually use a hair clamp) and I now wear my gold Italy cross pendant everywhere, and take it off only before my shower/bath. Oh yeah, pale skin is in. XD

Staying up late almost every night takes its toll on me sometimes, but so far the only seemingly permanent effect it had on me is my sickly pale skin. LOL. This is prolly what scared the COMELEC people last year, when I passed my form for my voting rights. *ROFL*

See? I'm old enough to vote! So why are people mistaking me for... a high school student? Flattering as it sounds, it's not too helpful where legality is concerned. Policemen might mistake me for a minor. ~_~ It's funny staying up late doesn't make me look any older. Wtf?

15 years old. The youngest estimate of my age by far. Passed by eagleman. Nice one~~ @_@


Audition Madness
I am officially addicted to the game now. Did I say that I bought indefinite items worth 600+? T_T ok lang, it's my club uniform ^^ and the 600 didn't come from my pocket, nor my wallet. It's part of my mod allowance. Thanks Mobius! Mmmwaaaahh!! XD

Ay. Ginamit ko allowance ko to buy stuff on an online game distributed by a rival company. Lol?

So anyway! This is Part 1 of the long-delayed Audition post! Nyahahahaha! Starts from when I started my life as pussyfierMEI. ^^


First Licence @ Level 5 going 6 (wala pa costume XD) [02-13-07]


First Hug (02-16) & First Kiss (02-17)


A. First Meeting with P4, aka Pasaway4 (Evespring, pussyfierXIV & zetsu23) [02-16-07]
B. One-on-One BuM game with CripAh, kabado mode XD
[02-16-07]
C. First Battle Party Loss (tingnan nyo naman score amp!) [02-17-07]



White Team in Couple Dance? WAHAHA~ Nag-apir lang yan.
Sabay sabi ni zet... kay... ano? O_O (02-17-07)



A. First BBoy game with P4, tingnan nyo score! XD (02-17-07)
B. The fight over cookies? (02-17-07)


Yung sa cookies, kasi... inggit si eagleman eh, WAHAHAHAHHA XD inaalok ko lang naman, sabay "baka makagat kita" huhuhuhu! T_T puro chain nga pala to~

Yellow - Blocked an attack
Red - Failed to block an attack, no score for that turn.
Blue - Attack Success
Green - Attack Failed

* info from Ceres


Matching chain sa Couple Dance (02-18-07) *akmang sisipain si zet nyahaha*


Ganda na sana ng Bonus Game, kaso Cool song eh T_T (02-21-07)



Two times tambak si Zest-O saken sa 1-2 Party, kaya ayun, bumawi sa Sync-8 XD
Read the diaogues waaaah T_T pinasikat nya ko nung araw na yun! x_x (02-21-07)



First win against deadhungryme, highest level player (02-22-07)
Awts, fans? Errr... @_@



First game with EmoLinus and nobodyssum1, Chii's dada and mama :3 (02-24-07)
Naka-chain yata ako x7 pero talo pa rin kasi noob partner ku x_x


02-24-07
Sabi ko kay Mecky (XIV), aba, inspired! Naka-chain kasi XD ayun yung sinabi nya, sa first pic. E di hiniritan ko (nasa second pic), eh napahiya ata, ayun nag-miss (third pic), tuwa pa ata na nag-apir lang sila ni Kim. (fourth pic) *ROFL*



02-24-07 (pa rin)
Nang ma-DC si eagleman sa... errr iniwan nya ko! @_@ (basahin nyo na lang yung sinabi nya WAHAHAHA)


Eto yung replay, imagine nyo na lang yung kulitan namin dyan LOL!
XIV-MEI CoupleD Replay


His reason: pinindot daw ang "Couple Proposal" button. zomg! @_@


Anyway that's all for now. I'm really sleepy and my dad's coming home anytime soon. ~_~ Ja, matta ne~~