What's next? I fall from the 3rd floor head first?

"I knew I shoudn't have eaten chocolate for my midnight dessert."

And the dog should be sent to the neighbor's house for barbecue. Curse him for mistaking my poor right thumb for an appetizer.. T_T" good thing I'm left-handed. I'm feeling a bit shaky and the thumb's all hot and I'm waiting to get carried out and away from this hellhole of a house. >_< Holy Week's never been this boring. That bite sure did the trick though, now I have something to get preoccupied with. ^_^ but wait, there's the consequences. But i tend to lean more on the bright side of things for me... If ever I get hospitalized, my ever-so-looooooooooong-distance boyfriend just might take the chance to legally visit me in the hospital. And aside from that, I just might skip Finals Week in school! Yay! XD

Back to the issue of my boyfriend, *groans miserably* just the night before we talked and then here we are again... It truly frustrates me that he'd just stop midway in our conversation via SMS without a word while I sit back and wait for his next reply... Can you imagine waiting for the sunset to actually RISE? Well, it may not be that extreme, i was just exaggerating. ^^; To put it in a simpler context, you'd stay up late each night just to see if he still has anything to say to you, like maybe a sweet good night or a reminder or whatever.. Nothing, nada. Just leave you there. And I've been doing that for 2 weeks now. And way back before. On and off. Now you tell me you can endure that. Even if you can I can't take it anymore! =.="

So i decided, this would be a great chance to knack his brain cells... ^^ and i texted him: "I was trying to see how you'd react to me ignoring you. But i thought you oughta know, my dog just bit me. Look for symptoms on the net." And within 3 minutes, voila! A call. And he was talking to me like I'm some stupid kid being reprimanded by the neighbor coz I stole one of his precious china or something, and he seemed to look like your regular old balding neighborhood grouch. Or at least, I wanted to imagine him that way. XD

It was funny while it lasted. I missed his voice, although I know I just talked to him the night before. I even got scolded for giggling in the middle of the night. >_< Maybe I just feel lovesick. A lovesick puppy. Oh wait, i forgot I'm supposed to be a N-E-K-O. A cat. A doggone crazy cat. What the... Uhh... ok, a crazy young feline. So in other words, a kitten looking for her Friskies.

*sigh* And maybe I just need more load for my cellphone. I'm getting bored just sitting around trying to study when my rebellious brain insists on playing PC games. Sorry hon, we just ran out of internet load. And this crappy laptop's sending out private info via our resident Trojans, worms, etcetera everytime we connect to the Net. Do you want my secrets to go out to the world?? Oh wait.. on second thought, I remembered Blogging was the first step to that. XD

I think that dog bite's starting to get to me. Coz now I just remembered something. Maybe I AM starting to evolve into a more feline specie than a human. Why else would my dog bite me? Hahaha. *sarcastic meow*

*After 3 hours*

Yah i just came back from the doc. Got 5 shots, darnit. As if one wasn't painful enough. >_<

If only i wasn't a dog lover, I would've skinned my own dog alive. Gaaaah! *vein pops out of forehead*

Why can't I do anything right today?

"Perhaps asking this stupid question might help a bit.." whispers my unknowing brain.

I've been quite disoriented for a long time now... if you consider two weeks long. It'll be longer once he leaves the country. Maybe having a partner isn't as great as we make it up to be. Things such as this don't have to affect other people in the same way. So why in friggin' hell am I actin' like such a weenie?! >_<

Maybe a year of exposure to the virus made me vulnerable... yeah, that's it. I just lack nutrients. Life's nutrients. I don't know if there's a doctor out there who can cure me. *sigh* Maybe... just maybe... if I didn't make myself appear too susceptible to the virus in the first place, this all wouldn't have happened and I'm still trotting away, living a normal life like I used to for the past what? ...17 and a half years!?

They say life has its ups and downs. Why in the name of all that is existing am I always experiencing the downs lately? I feel so stumped on this. To prove this, you'll probably see me staring off into empty space every now and then, even so, more than usual. If you happen to notice me and actually ask how I'm doing, I just might burst into tears so it's better you leave me be.

"No man is an island"... aww, to hell with it... in this case I think it's better if people would leave me to myself for a while... a very long while..

Maybe I just need recollecting. I'm having too much Short Term Memory Loss lately. I even forget to bring money. Thank you Lord for giving me a nice old Lunchlady who can treat me to meals every now and then.

Someone catch my fall... or make it less painful.

*nice start for a blog huh.. this is actually my 3rd blog. I abandoned the first 2. XD*