6.26.2005

A White Dog, a Black Motorcycle and THE Blue Aura

I wasn't thinking of updating my blog this soon... But heck, I've got news. And it's a big, alarming one. (not surprising though.)

Okay, today was my last day of returning back and forth the dog clinic for my anti-rabies shots. (remember I told you that my freakin' dog bit me last March? Yeah, I just graduated from that. W0000t~!! XD) So when I got in the clinic followed by mom (as usual, she's my chaperone), I gave the green record card and waited. During that dull time we heard little squeals from behind the curtains. We both thought Doc's patients this time are infants (with hyper stamina), but the nurse told us it was his 2-year old son. LOL, the squeal sounded like that of a girl's. XD Anyway, a few moments later, out came what looked like a nanny, holding something, or rather, like pulling something from the ground. Then this uber cute baby girl came out and looked at me! Sooo CUTE~~~! ^x^ She was walking with some kind of strap wrapped around her upper body, which was held tight by the nanny. My first thought, and rather a rude one at that, was, "Parang doggie!" The nurses couldn't help but laugh at this shameless reaction. And I was like, "Wha? She does look like a guide dog with that strap!" And yeah, mom scolded me for that. >.< Then one of the nurses said that the baby was often called "Whitey" because she was "mestiza" and, yah, always guided by that strap. Hence Whitey, a typical dog's name. I heaved a sigh of relief, knowing I wasn't alone on the idea. XD

So the injections were finished. (at last!) We went off after paying and getting our receipts. We decided to walk home instead of paying 15PhP for just(!!!) a 200-meter walk to the tricycle station. It just rained hard, so some of the canals were overflowing, and half of the road was submerged in sewer waters. (eww.) So we had no choice but to walk around it, on the dry part of the road. We just passed a Caltex gas station then and were passing in front of an old, abandoned building. Mom and I were still talking about "Whitey" when I suddenly felt here being pulled away, to the direction of the busy road. The umbrella she was holding was pulled down and I saw a black motorcycle with 2 passengers in it pausing briefly to grab my mom's handbag. "THIEF!!" shouted mom. She was holding on deperately to her handbag till the thief let go and zoomed off. Two jeepneys stopped to ask my mom what happened, and they both went off. I dunno if the first driver intended to chase the motorcycle coz he went off as soon as mom told him the thieves haven't gotten away that far, or he's just in a plain hurry. And so, I held on to the bag coz mom was still shaky from the experience. We got on a tricycle ride, more than willing to go home.

This just shows that they are everywhere now. Guess there's no place safe left in the Philippines. =(

And finally, I'm writing this at dead midnight coz my local customer in PC rentals hogged my new PC all to himself for 3 hours, then came a brown out. AND after the brownout, he still came over to play another hour! (Life is so unfair! T_T) The game he's playing? My version of Ragnarok Offline. It's so damn hard to configure the darn program, it took me till midnight of yesterday to fix all of it and I'm not even enjoying a minute of it yet! I'll jst play tomorrow. I just fixed the GM accounts and changed the levels to 99. Of coure, all my configurations are hidden from Jomar's watchful eye. (he's an average computer literate 2nd year HS student) He's happy he got to Level 99 today and is now levelling his magician. Oh well.

That's it. I need to go and burn some CDs. *melts all over the keyboard*

6.22.2005

Reminiscence: A Trip Down Memory Lane

It was him who first talked to me about his problems (we talked a lot on RO last year). Like Rielene, he told me about everything; from his college graduation to the 3rd party issue. He told only me, someone he knew for only 3 months then. He didn't even bother to tell those things to his 4+ year-old barkada. Weird right? After a lot of thinking, I never got to know how that even started. I just knew he was still sore after his ex broke up with him, and I just happened to be there. Maybe it was because I was the only member who actually talked to him about something other than WOE, Zeny, Forbidden... Ragnarok in general.

I thought, maybe he's confident telling me because we haven't even met. Helping him was like second nature to me... As common as my 3 meals, my daily walks, and my daily rounds in HO. One of my reasons for helping him was just to erase unnecessary thoughts. I wanted our guild to be known as an elite guild. One that is feared and respected. One that can conquer, defend, and manage a Castle. And this guild needed a GM who concentrated his thoughtson the guild. And he was that GM, who once led the coup 'd etat against a former guildmaster's tyranny. (Yes, our guild in Fenrir had a very dramatic history. XD) Because of my contributions to the guild, I was escalated from a mere 2nd generation member to a member of the elite guild circle. (I left that position to continue being an extension GM) I never realized that what I did meant another thing to him till it was too late.

Back then... I was committed to someone else. I had a boyfriend of only 3 months, and Kyle was then 6 months sore from his heartbreak. My (ex-)boyfriend (whom I will refer to as Uriel or Uri from here on) was his confidante back in the early days of pRO Fenrir. A few weeks after I managed to heal Kyle's wounds, he told me he wanted to visit "us" (all the guild members) in LB. So he disclosed his plans, his companion, and the next day, we met. For the first time in 2 months of acquaintance, we saw each other for real. Me? At first, I was like, "Big deal. C'mon in, guild meeting's about to start!" (LOL XD) Actually, what I first said was, "So, who's who?" (LOL) That night, we all played in the same shop, managed to snag ourselves a nice castle, and everyone went over to Quincey's shop for a reunion of pioneer members.

~*~ fast forward ~*~

A month passed. I became more and more involved with the game and the guild I nurtured. After one unsuccesful defense of the agit, the guild held a meeting behind the Prontera Church. The usual rants and senseless comments flooded the chatroom a member set up. Soon after, all that's left was just the two of us. Though it may not have been evident, I was sort of his right hand (wo)man, a personal assistant. After all siege issues were settled, he started a different topic; our personal lives. He told me all sorts of things... From his friends' activities to his mom and niece. And he said he'd love to visit LB again. He loved the atmosphere, and the food. Our conversation seemed to last forever until Uriel called me out. He said he wanted to talk.

Once we were alone, he told me something Kyle told him some time ago. "I think I'm falling for her." Uriel said he understood that, since I was like his bestfriend in-game. And indeed I was. But certain misunderstandings led to others creating a chain reaction, and this was the very reason why Uriel broke up with me. Then, it was my turn.

For girls, one of the most painful experiences would be having her boyfriend break up with her. Not telling her straight to her face makes things worse. Loving too much is another big mistake. And when he takes it back, rejecting it would seem less painful than taking him back when all damage has been done. When I received that message, it just happened that I was talking to Kyle on my cellphone via headset. And when I read it, I immediately burst into tears. The next day, Kyle went over to my home in Santa Rosa (all the way from Valenzuela) to comfort me. It was only the second time we met in real life.

I didn't want another heartache, I just wanted to isolate myself. I began to think: Why the hell did I end up with him, what with all the guys I know would treat me better? Why did I choose him, when in the first place, I had a dozen to choose from? That's because people are not my collection. Wtf is with the phrase "collection of friends"? People aren't stuffed toys. They're living, breathing human beings with a heart. Kyle prove that to me when he came over to see me. It was the first time a guy stood with me, even ignoring my mom's vicious observations. He became my ray of light.

With tamed hatred I came face to face with the "man" who rejected me. All I wanted was to make him suffer as I did. Vengeance was indeed best served cold. But only his fire melted me a bit... Just to the point that I wouldn't disregard him like trash. We said our final goodbyes, and I chose my bestfriend's company over him.

Many things happened since that time; the guild's (or at least, majority of the guild) long-term wish, that Kyle and I get together, came true in real life. In-game, we merged with another powerful guild and gained the name we currently carry, we established alliances, we gained and lost members. But in real life, things started to get nasty, which affected our gamer lives. Kyle gave in to Quincey's words and entered the continent of Mu, while slowly losing grip of Ragnarok, and the guild. I was being left with the responsibility of holding the guild together in his absence. But this wasn't enough, for Kyle held a unique presence; one I cannot replace. I was faced with the harsh reality of a breaking guild due to the absence of its leader. And my pleas for his return were unheard. So after a few months of endless toil (and not to mention, real-life fights because of in-game issues), during Christmas vacation, I retreated to the new world he chose to stay in, holding a curiousity and a little hurt for being left behind. And that's when I met the Holy Order, and eventually left my martyr life in pRO Fenrir. =)

He decided to take a step... I took him in... And we ended up with the best rewards we could've thought of at the time: We had each other. (accidently? :P) Taking risks is natural in relationships. All you need is the courage to fight, the heart to survive, and the goal to keep you intact. I'm sure there are many more, but in my case, I was able to fight it well because I wanted my freedom, no unwanted strings attached.

Just when I was beginning to think I had enough experience with love and hurt combined, he had to work overseas. We both admitted we were weak in long distance relationships (heck, I was on the verge of giving up far too many times for me to mention) and yet he chose to keep us. Well, he fought. And know what? We're still here. =)

At first, it felt a bit painful remembering everything. But in the end, I concluded, that reminiscing... never felt this good. ^_^

6.15.2005

One Anime Quiz After Another

Wheeee~!! I'm Kagome! But I was kinda hoping I'd be Inuyasha's first love interest, Kikiyo. ^o^

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6.14.2005

Blogs and Nationality Mix-ups. O_O;

"Hop hop hop hop hop jump jump jump hop!" --> if you could determine where this came from, I'll treat you out to a Sashimi platter! XD

I found this neat blog on the net, because I visited my bro Tuna Caserole, Uriel, Maddox, then (tadaaaah!) Xiaxue. You may question me for my odd preferences, but I found them to be nice reading materials. (actually, I found the latter two by accident. ^_^) I just wanted to post something about my last stop, which is the only "girly" site I dropped by today. I dunno, there must be something with me and my last stops. DON'T ASK. ^___^

Well, I don't really worship the ground she blogs on, for crying out loud, I have my own blog, which I update whenever I feel like it, and I am happy about it! Simple as it may look, but it's better to look at rather than some crappy blogs out there... just filling it with rants, blah blahs... it's a big waste of time and subscription. -_-" *hitting someone in friends' list with her can*

But anyway, I knew right away she was Singaporean, and I find her posts... what can I call 'em... Crafty? Errgh... I dunno, I can't rack my brains for a better term. Euphemism mode OFF. XD One thing I just can't help but point out (me and my crappy english. O_O) is her images. I think she posts too many pics. But no one said it's bad, ayt? ^o^ It just takes a lotta time to download 'em all. (Especially for me coz when I check out a website, I do mean I read [almost] every word, and look at every image in it.) In the case of Xiaxue's blog, it's definitely worth reading, whether it's for information purposes (limited to Singapore people only), or for [more than] a few laughs. (You'll get even more if you actually understand Singlish. XD)

Back to the Singaporean part, it makes me feel really good inside (AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!) that I understand a few of her Singlish (Singaporean-English) entries. How? We used to converse in Singlish at AXN-Asia. We eventually got so close, we even had a family there. (And I had my very first online Singaporean boyfriend there!! OMG! How i mish Kenken!! XD) That's when I started getting used to speaking Singlish, even my big bro in SG thought I was really a Singaporean gal posing as a "Philippina" (no kidding, that's how he spelled it. X_x"), when he got to talk to me and we texted each other. Phrases like "the party I went to was so shiok", "don't mind 'em lah", angela-chan, long time no see lor!" and the unforgettable "buay paiseh ah!!" XD But I think I'll have to talk about 'em next time. I don't want my trail of thoughts to be cut off in the middle. ^___^

Thinking back (more like browsing back) to Xiaxue, I kinda wished I could gather up all the pioneer members of the AXN-Asia Forums, even those who flooded, spammed, flamed and been a real pain in the arse in the Green Era*, those before them, and some who came in soon after the Green Era. Not just from the Philippines, but also those from HK, SG, MY, TW, even those from USA and Down Under, It'd be one helluva blast. (I can flame them all back for all I care! MUAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!! >;D)

One thought lingers in my sh*tty keyboard... after I banged on it endlessly during my brainstorming sessions: "Shut UP liao." (How the heck does my keyboard do that anyway?! Problem with women [or girls?]: We imagine too much.)

So, have you figured out where I got my hopping frenzy yet? ^o^

(*The Green Era of AXN-Asia is when the theme was a lime green color. That was way back... 4? 5 years ago?? It's what can be called the Golden Age of Foruming. XD)

6.11.2005

Picture Perfect, Picture Problem! X_x;

Since I started blogging, I've been using my cellphone to take pictures of "significant" events in everyday life. The problem is, I really don't know how to transfer them to the computer... @_@ I know you need that USB cord thingie, but I don't know where to get one, and I don't think my dad knows either. T_T I have so many pictures there, like my cat in a can (literally) and the most tuna cans I ever saw in the house at one time. It's all too... tempting. *drools* XD

So, does anyone know where I can get a friggin' USB cable!? T_T

Oh, here's something Naruto. I can't believe i got the old man! :((
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I'd love to be Naruto. Nuff said. ^_^

And Happy 7th Monthsary to me and my wub. Wow, it's the first time I went over the half-year boundary. XD

6.10.2005

Tuna Chronicles 2005

I was supposed to update this yesterday... but for some reason, I became uber lazy after I turned 19. Hahahaha! XD Well anyway, belated happy birthday to me! ^_^

Yesh~ I know the title seems out of place, but I just gained another year! BEAR WITH IT! XD

For the record, my 19th birthday is again classified under the more insignificant celebrations of my life. I guess it can be attributed to the fact that I'm becoming more of a scrooge everyday. Spending on other things than the basic necessities is like a chore. (Well, internet card's one of my necessities now... ~_~) And just to stress on the "insignificant" part, lemme share what happened on my birthday. (you can skip the next parts ^____^")

First off, I slept around midnight of June 8. I was watching something... forgot what it was but the characters put on one hell of a show so I stayed up late. My mom greeted me, THEN ordered me to go upstairs to my room. What does she have against the concept of a good night's sleep anyway!? -_-" Twas because I was occupying my dad's couch. (We decided to call it dad's couch coz he loves to sleep there. Talk about hogging the couch, literally! @_@) SO! I woke up around 7am, the usual, coz my mom has a daily delivery to the local bakery. I received a call from my grandma a few minutes later, greeting me a happy birthday. (Mom was rather surprised to know that she remembers my birthday. XD) Then at around 12noon, all freshened up, we left home to go to a friggin' BIR seminar! Talk about celebrating. ¬_¬" Well most of what I understood there was just many blah blahs and whatchamacolits. After all I heard (during the time I was awake AND listening), I felt discouraged to continue the business, AND the eminar guy looks rather happy about it! *_* That's when I thought, "The Philippine Tax System sucks!" >:Þ

The seminar ended around 3.30pm. By that time I was already starving... so I may have drooled over the roasted chicken without me noticing. XD We ate @ KFC, leaving the idea of buying roasted chicken for take-out. (There's always the next visit~) Then poof! I thought it was time for malling when suddenly... we were in the supermarket, grocery shopping for the STORE! WTH!!! /frustration /madness /angst = /melt it was 5.05pm then. We were to catch a movie @ 6.25, so Mom and I split up the shopping list to make things faster. I was done in 15 minutes, while Mom was still halfway through the list! Proves my theory right that bigger, *ahem* shapely *ahem, AHEM!* legs can help you move faster. (Mom has skinny legs btw. XD!)

Know what we watched in the movie theater? Mr. and Mrs. Smith! It's a great mixture of laughter, action, a whole lotta spy stuff, a lot of KABOOM!s and KAPOW!s on both sides, and chills and thrills. Just goes to show how much I love Angelina~~ Oh Angelina!! *droooools* XD

So all in all, it's a happy birthday, alright. Except the part where I had to carry the shopping bags into the house. AcK!! >_<

Oh well. That's it for today's post, I guess. Have lotsa things to fix. ~_~