Did I fail you?

Currently Playing: Sweetbox - Killing Me DJ

If you read this and you felt that I failed you in some way, please do read on. What I have to say might interest you.


Audition: Pussyfierz LCS Finals
Two words: nervous and clumsy. I know RIC deserves his spot and I really am happy for him, but I keep on having flashbacks of what happened. I do feel kinda envious of the prestige... (~_~) and I have regrets that I didn't do my best, mainly because I didn't have confidence in myself. It also happened that the song playing was one of my favorites: Come to Me by Cherry Filter, 140BPM. I keep on replaying the event in my head, and I can't help but feel that I may have disappointed my friends who gave me their support. Weh. x_x (di kaya feeling ako by saying they really supported me? ouch.)

Most of all, I disappointed myself. After that game, whenever Random 120~140 or 140~ plays Come to Me, I try to win the game. But most of the time I end up losing and replaying that same flashback all over again. Viscious cycle no? It annoys me. Parang di ko matanggap, kahit alam ko sa sarili kong TANGGAP KO. Totally WTF.

A. LCS Finals: RIC vs MEI x_x [4-8-2007]
B. PF Video Shoot, Britney girls' Choreo (todo bawi? look at my score, pang-D8... didn't even use Chance kasi bawal x_x) [4-8-2007]


And another thing, there was supposed to be three of us who will compete for the title: RIC, PMJ and me. PMJ didn't participate (rather, wasn't able to) because he couldn't connect to the game... A regular occurence on a regular Sunday in the ordinary game of Audition Philippines. He sent a Group Message with his user/pass saying he's quitting the game/club and thanking us because he didn't have the opportunity to compete for the title. Though completely insane, I have the heart to understand and conceded to a rematch. Hanggang ngayon, wala pa rin.

PMJ dear, the two of us can have a match anytime. I know you'd deserve that title more than I ever will. ~_~ It's good you didn't quit. :P


Audition: Pussyfierz Forums
I couldn't make a freaking template. Stupid color codes. I did make a draft forum with Invision Free, it's currently offline and I can't find it in me to work on it. I have no idea where to start, really. I mean, I DID start working on it, but I don't know what to put in it. Horrrr. Sis MEW, the Admin Panel of the current forum doesn't work anymore. I have no idea why but I think you can fix it, since you're the main admin. Arrr.

I have absolutely no time management. How stupid of me.


Teh Late Blog Update
I've been in a slump since the LCS Event and have been busy doing other stuff. Mainly, fixing my damned personal life. I don't know about my love life, I really couldn't care less at the moment. I'm focused on living and enjoying my life right now. In due time, maybe I'll end up with the right decisions... and fix those broken leaks I left in my wake.


GiTS Lyric Transcriptions
I haven't finalized the English translations, and I can't focus myself on working on it... sadly, I've begun to lose interest since Russian is so freaking hard. T.T I hope I can work on it again within this month, I really hate leaving lose ends...

Konstantin dear, thanks for praising my cracked romanization of Origa's song lyrics. You have no idea how much it means to me. T_T I'll mail you my reply by tomorrow... or by the weekend.


EiC: Project Elethea
History document is buried in microdust now... I haven't touched it for 2 months. When I said we should rest from the project, it was because I got tired of the brainstorming and editing, it's almost drained me of my life energy... x_x When I work, I put my soul into it, especially if it's a project I dedicate myself to. This is the case for EiC.

I'll be going back to school in June. Paperwork mode leh. Maybe by that time I can finally set aside a bit of my time for EiC again. Oh, I look forward to our gimik this Sunday. ^_^


Evespring
Thanks for talking to me earlier. I somehow feel a bit easier. Pero sana wag na Miss Mei. Aside from making me very uncomfortable, it does not suit you. Really. :P

I'll hold you to it. ~_~

If you ever start making the same mistake, I'll warn you beforehand. Don't worry about me, I'm just fine. ~_~


Gintokun
It's nice to know you're okay now. I hope you remember the stuff I said to you. I believe they can make you a better person, at least.

Keep in touch dude. :)


WIL
Toinks. There are two things bothering me. One, the Meow Meow Couple Eliminations. I know I screwed up real bad leh, even though it was you who made us both miss the 2nd FM of Aloha ~__~ itchokei, we get Best Costume anyways. :P

What WIL said after we lost vs. ZOE & POL

Another thing is the Fashionista entry. Salisi schedules leh... It's not just your fault T_T but I still am sad that we weren't able to join. ;__;

Prepped up for couple practice + pictorial

At least we got to try the Easy Kiss ne? XD *research mode on other moves*

WIL's screenie (front) and my Fraps shot (side)

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Daddy LOU and Mommy SAI
Tq for last night, your words meant a lot to me~ I was kinda enlightened to the situation after daddy explained it, and mommy reminded me that it's the boy's fault if he misunderstands my friendly intentions or whatever. LOL. Kaso si mommy may mga tinanong weh... I was reluctant to tell you pa naman hahaha.. Eh, never mind. It's over~ :D

Daddy yung wewento mo ha! YM! XD


Tuna Caserole onii-sama
The game last night was fun~~ noob killing leh~ I know you hate being defeated. Haha. I promise you I'll get Dance! Online, and if I happen to be so noob at it you can thrash me as many times as you want. :3 (I'll retaliate later on so you better watch out XD)

Btw, I have screenies of our game. You were so cute~ nyahahaha XD [4-20-2007]

A. 700k+ score in Dyna8 + multiple chains + chance = bot daw?! Ay, BOOTING daw. o_o
B. 0 score, walang numpad. HAHAHAHAHHA xDD
C. Black list daw aku!? GWaaaaaaaahhHHhhHHH xDD
D. Me going crazy over the fact that I'm actually beating my kuya. HAHAHAHA


XIV
Hmm, what can I say? Sorry, you may have felt that I'm not in the mood to ride with most of your jokes... A lot of things have happened, and I just don't want to repeat old mistakes~ Oi don't quit Audi! Sapakin kita dyan. x_x Master says you stay. :3

Hirit? o.o Amp SYM was there -_- (Pet talking to master)

Btw, I just might make it on the 28th, or I'll send my little sister as a proxy. She's thinking of setting a barkada reunion and the venue's gonna be MOA. Bleeeh. :P

(Actually it was me who suggested the venue. Wah! x_x)


Raven
Read.

If you refuse to understand me, then so be it. It's not my loss man... :)


*sigh*, so hot today! I wanna go to the beach, or soak in the pool... T__T

Da Power of Chamba: Part Three

Those who have followed my Friendster Photo Blog (in other words, the stories on my photos) know that I've beaten several mamaw players because of sheer, dumb luck. Today I just got hit by it again.





...I made it into the freakin Finals. X_X

My opponents: RIC and PMJ. WAAAAAAAAAAAH!!


I already told everyone that I was sure to lose the semis earlier, I was lagging so bad my arrows kept resetting even though I press the correct ones. (FU said it's because so many people were watching. He was right. It took some time for my PC to display the room we were in, XIV's got out just fine and on time.)

I couldn't use Chance because I was frustrated with the lag, and my brain was concentrated on that alone. And chatting I guess. @_@

You can say both VOX and I were injured today, my right wrist has this nasty rash that I got from removing a dark patch of skin (the sort you get from using the mouse/writing with your right hand too often?), and VOX's whole body was aching, according to him. We scored the lowest among the four 1st Placers.

Among the 9 1st place winners from the Eliminations, only 4 of us made it to the semis. I don't know where they went and why they didn't make it, But I saw DEV in the lobby a few minutes after the 1st Placers' match ended. (Hey, we started late already! How come you didn't come sooner? x_x)

...Some of my clubmates were cheering for me. Being the only girl in the batch does that, I guess. Oh God help me next week. I might faint of fright. @__@;;



Bleh. So many thoughts today. I even drove the Pajero earlier today and that was more than enough to unnerve me. Gosh so many happenings today... @_@; (Edit: WILL YOU JUST LOOK AT THIS REDUNDANCY!? Wala na ko sa sarili! WAAAAHH)