Christmas Cheers, Christmas Tears

Merry Christmas to everyone! Partially merry for me. Still not done untangling the knots in my life and then here comes more. Such a pity for a cute kitten like me to witness the harsh realities of life at such a tender age of 3.1 (cat) years. =.= Anyway, I got cut off yesterday coz the shop was chock full of people. Only got full control of my PC again yesterday, 11pm. You think I was still in the mood to blog? Heck, NO. There was a good reason, but I dunno if it's good only to me. It was Christmas eve, and my heart was still filled with nothing but sorrow. How low is that? =.=

Anyway... many would think: Why would my heart be filled with nothing but sorrow? I was known for being the jolly, happy-go-lucky life of the group. I had all the basic necessities of life. I was always happy. But... *sigh* Well, aside from the sad news of my brother's mom passing away, there was something else I found on the verge of death. Lo and behold... It was the ties that bond me and my beloved.

Of course, I wouldn't have acknowledged it if someone wasn't there to make me see it under a brighter light. In this case, there were two people. And two people who were very close to me. One was my brother. The other, a rather dangerous fork on my road, was a friend I have only recently known.

It was just like what my brother said... I'm feeling the way he did a few months ago. And that's when I started to see the things I refused to see, or even missed, during the times I chose to be innocent and live a simple life.

How was I supposed to know I was destined to live a life far more cruel than what I imagined..? T_T

It's Christmas alright... But I just can't see a reason for me to celebrate. *sigh*

O_o?

Hmm.. Last update was October 1. O_o err... the excuse "I was busy" still applies. XD To my dear imouto Raine... I'm so sorry. I'll send you new EiC stuff to make up for 2 months of not updating my blog. XD

As for news, I'm still a kitten! When will I ever grow up?? <_< *dry smirk* seriously, I've been one heck of a busy kitten these past 2 months, I barely had time to tidy myself up. =.= It was the same thing with my bro, but he had the privilege of accessing the Net for free due to to the nature of his job. THE WORLD IS SO UNFAIR! T_T

The reason I can update my stinkin' blog now is because someone else is paying my Net time for me. He's playing GB beside me. How charitable! *evil cackle* And I have a very good reason to update my blog, coz something *finally!* happened in my boring 1st out of 9 lives.

Something I've wished for in... *counts with her paws* 5 months finally happened. The catch though, it didn't turn out as i expected. I finally found someone who can adopt me, but I'm too chicken to let him any closer. You get my point? Already?? Good. Coz I don't think I have the heart to expalin any further. XD

As with other news, me and my girl friends got to chat for a while on Y!M.

Whoops, brb. Update again later. X_x