Paula Carlyn Lopez y Legazpi
March 31, 1990 - March 18, 2007
a.k.a.
IGN: cArLyNa~*~*~
Currently Playing: Jewellery - TonightI first met her on Audition last month, probably around the same time I met rebkev. She was such a sweet girl. I could tell she was really kind. But I don't think we started out too good kasi she was somewhat aloof o.O knowing me, I'd still pursue of course. She warmed up to me later on so I guess that wasn't a waste of effort. ^_^
Days passed and we haven't been in much contact with each other. We see each other's characters in-game sometimes, but we seldom chat because she has her own group, and I have mine. Despite this, there was this small spark I sense when we see each other, a hint of a deep-rooted friendship. (well, I was hoping ^^)
-insert- No, this isn't shoujo ai. BUZZ OFF. -insert-
Around March 10 and the days after that, I heard and read stuff about rebkev, the guy I thought was her (in-game) boyfriend. I won't go into detail since I don't much about it myself. That's when I saw her post in the Pussyfierz thread. Alas, my name was there. O_O
Reduced size of her postShe remembered me! ^_^ It was only then I found out she's been going in and out of the hospital for a heavy reason. So I added her on my YM and the next day, we got to chat. (kulit na bata, gumagamit pa ng PC sa hospital kahit bawal)
...just a part of our last talk.-insert- Been talking to WIL at this part of my post.
As he logged out a tear fell on my lips and I tasted it. Salty ~_~ -insert-
I really didn't know it would be the last time I'd be able to talk to her. If I did,
sana nilubos lubos ko na. I could've encouraged her more. To hang on and trust the Lord to extend her life.
I regret not being able to be a better friend to her.
March 22, 2007; 11PMI told Mecky that I'm about to have my last dance for the night. I was feeling sleepy and rather tired from the events of the day. I spent the first half of the day at UPLB, literally walking my papers. ~_~ I got home tired but accomplished. (I'll blog about this next time.) When I played, I got accussed of being a botter by an
Amateur named
howerr, and being at the level he/she is at, the rest of the people in the room assumed the same thing. Last I heard of him/her, he/she was still preaching about me being a bot.
"Pussyfier pa man din... kahiya"While at the lobby, Mecky told me to make the room, so I did, and I named it
"last dance ~_~", he was even surprised that it had to be Couple Dance Mode. (ayaw mo? sows, gusto mo rin~ *grin* [joke~]) It took us a few minutes of waiting and inviting to proceed to dancing, and it just happened that I invited
momoshiro09 because we lacked one guy to make 2 couples.
Momo asked me if anyone was piloting my character last Sunday. I told him no, I don't have pilots (and for me to entrust my account to a pilot would have a very big reason behind it). Then he asked me "alam nyo na po ba yung tungkol kay carlyna?"
I have a bad feeling about this. I tried to reason out with my brain and just said "inde. hanu? tungkol ba sa kanila ni rebkev?" "No," he said, "she passed away last Sunday"
...
Shock. And
Disappointment.
I was in
Denial of everything in my head for about two minutes. I felt
Anger because of people who never made her life (even virtual life) any easier.
Regret, because of a lot of things...
For a while there I didn't know what to do... until I saw the girl (mejcris) standing on the platform, waiting for the game to start. I said, "Momo, can you come down?"
In-game my hands were just pressing keys of their own accord until I realized they were having trouble with Chance. Talk about possessed. I didn't miss a turn, not even once, during this dance. Mecky did, just once. Rare feat. ~_~
[Edit: I watched the replay again. I turned Chance off
pala even before the 2nd turn. I just remembered I was too disturbed to think of the opposite direction. ~_~ And I noticed Mecky didn't use Chance either. *sigh*]
Mecky and I were really depressed by the news. Know what?
We got 14 hearts.The room title... the unintentional invitation... the bad news... the dance and the result... Sis, did you mean to tell me more? About what?
...Or is this your doing, Uri?
I think I've had too much of divine intervention all my life. I can't think straight about this anymore... ~_~
Carlyn,
...I just wish we had the chance to meet earlier than this. For all we know, I may have passed by you when I walked the streets of Los Baños. We might've had a common friend.
You could've had me as a big sister. ~_~
Alas, God decided to call you back early. Seems He needs you to be in Heaven sooner than we thought. ~_~
Sana nababasa mo to. I miss you sis. I really do. :'(
**Last night I cried for about 30 minutes. I don't know. I just fell asleep holding my phone, halfway into composing a message for EDZ. I cried again today. ~_~**
