my bed.
my teddy bear, Lei.
my goldfish, Goldie.
my dog, Chopper. (who almost chopped my hand)
my friends in the neighborhood.
my christmas gifts. (never went to godparents)
my fireworks.
my elf.
my guildmates.
my allies.
him.
and him.
I feel so crappy it confuses me. I find myself wondering why the hell am I thinking like this... weird. Just weird.
My world... spinnin' round and round... Did I miss a beat?
This is definitely one of the worst moments of my blogging life. If not the worst. It's so bad, I can't find the words to explain it! CRAP! >.<
1.27.2006
1.11.2006
Time passes so quickly before you realize it.
And when you lose track of time, you can't help but be left behind.
When you're left behind, you tend to think back.
Think of past mistakes... Wallow in your thoughts and regret.
... and end up never advancing at all.
That's where I am now.
Lost in time.
And there are too many doors of opportunity (and misfortune) for me to choose from.
It's too bad I wasn't able to update this blog around say... January 1 or 2. I sure would've been able to put a happy post. But now that I lost my New Year cheers (and of course, not as much customers as I had this past holiday), I have enough time to cook up something *good* to start my new year as a neko blogger.
Here's a list of stuff I wanna do this year: (these are not resolutions, coz I'm not one to follow my resolutions, it's just stupid)
1. apply for a non-pro license
2. go on a serious diet (WTF?)
3. go back to school
4. beg my parents to apply for Smart WiFi or PLDT myDSL
5. try playing Guild Wars (if I ever get a CD installer, that is)
6. try playing RF Online (same as above)
7. train my tongue to get less twisted when speaking my other languages... say, straight English? =.=
8. buy new clothes
9. in relation to 8, learn how to carry a skirt. even a long one. just for a friggin' day. without kickin' butt!! XD
10. eat my brother Tuna alive. WHAT? I'm a cat. Sue me. >:D
11. kill **** /gg
12. get a life, for me and my brother Tuna (know anyone selling? tax free and all amenities paid for? O_o)
13. maybe find my sanity and stop playing innocent
Errr... That's a friggin bad number. Lemme add something later... If I can think of one. X_x
Anyway for those people who frequent my blog and watch my exploits written down not-so-neatly, thanks. I appreciate the concern. Thanks to a few gracious people my daddy pays to talk to me (well my cellphone number IS postpaid, so he pays the bills, hahaha!), I was able to get through the rough holidays partly still sane. It really works wonders... This voice chat thing. *worship Y!M OMG!* XD
Oh yeah, I remembered this! Another one for the list!14. find my student permit first before i do #2
Wahahaha! XD
About the post title... Hmm. I'm in too good a mood to start blabbering about it. Lemme savor this moment of bliss for a few more hours... ^_^;
(this post was created january 5, i just got too busy to log back in and actually post it. T_T)
When you're left behind, you tend to think back.
Think of past mistakes... Wallow in your thoughts and regret.
... and end up never advancing at all.
That's where I am now.
Lost in time.
And there are too many doors of opportunity (and misfortune) for me to choose from.
It's too bad I wasn't able to update this blog around say... January 1 or 2. I sure would've been able to put a happy post. But now that I lost my New Year cheers (and of course, not as much customers as I had this past holiday), I have enough time to cook up something *good* to start my new year as a neko blogger.
Here's a list of stuff I wanna do this year: (these are not resolutions, coz I'm not one to follow my resolutions, it's just stupid)
1. apply for a non-pro license
2. go on a serious diet (WTF?)
3. go back to school
4. beg my parents to apply for Smart WiFi or PLDT myDSL
5. try playing Guild Wars (if I ever get a CD installer, that is)
6. try playing RF Online (same as above)
7. train my tongue to get less twisted when speaking my other languages... say, straight English? =.=
8. buy new clothes
9. in relation to 8, learn how to carry a skirt. even a long one. just for a friggin' day. without kickin' butt!! XD
10. eat my brother Tuna alive. WHAT? I'm a cat. Sue me. >:D
11. kill **** /gg
12. get a life, for me and my brother Tuna (know anyone selling? tax free and all amenities paid for? O_o)
13. maybe find my sanity and stop playing innocent
Errr... That's a friggin bad number. Lemme add something later... If I can think of one. X_x
Anyway for those people who frequent my blog and watch my exploits written down not-so-neatly, thanks. I appreciate the concern. Thanks to a few gracious people my daddy pays to talk to me (well my cellphone number IS postpaid, so he pays the bills, hahaha!), I was able to get through the rough holidays partly still sane. It really works wonders... This voice chat thing. *worship Y!M OMG!* XD
Oh yeah, I remembered this! Another one for the list!14. find my student permit first before i do #2
Wahahaha! XD
About the post title... Hmm. I'm in too good a mood to start blabbering about it. Lemme savor this moment of bliss for a few more hours... ^_^;
(this post was created january 5, i just got too busy to log back in and actually post it. T_T)
12.25.2005
Christmas Cheers, Christmas Tears
Merry Christmas to everyone! Partially merry for me. Still not done untangling the knots in my life and then here comes more. Such a pity for a cute kitten like me to witness the harsh realities of life at such a tender age of 3.1 (cat) years. =.= Anyway, I got cut off yesterday coz the shop was chock full of people. Only got full control of my PC again yesterday, 11pm. You think I was still in the mood to blog? Heck, NO. There was a good reason, but I dunno if it's good only to me. It was Christmas eve, and my heart was still filled with nothing but sorrow. How low is that? =.=
Anyway... many would think: Why would my heart be filled with nothing but sorrow? I was known for being the jolly, happy-go-lucky life of the group. I had all the basic necessities of life. I was always happy. But... *sigh* Well, aside from the sad news of my brother's mom passing away, there was something else I found on the verge of death. Lo and behold... It was the ties that bond me and my beloved.
Of course, I wouldn't have acknowledged it if someone wasn't there to make me see it under a brighter light. In this case, there were two people. And two people who were very close to me. One was my brother. The other, a rather dangerous fork on my road, was a friend I have only recently known.
It was just like what my brother said... I'm feeling the way he did a few months ago. And that's when I started to see the things I refused to see, or even missed, during the times I chose to be innocent and live a simple life.
How was I supposed to know I was destined to live a life far more cruel than what I imagined..? T_T
It's Christmas alright... But I just can't see a reason for me to celebrate. *sigh*
Anyway... many would think: Why would my heart be filled with nothing but sorrow? I was known for being the jolly, happy-go-lucky life of the group. I had all the basic necessities of life. I was always happy. But... *sigh* Well, aside from the sad news of my brother's mom passing away, there was something else I found on the verge of death. Lo and behold... It was the ties that bond me and my beloved.
Of course, I wouldn't have acknowledged it if someone wasn't there to make me see it under a brighter light. In this case, there were two people. And two people who were very close to me. One was my brother. The other, a rather dangerous fork on my road, was a friend I have only recently known.
It was just like what my brother said... I'm feeling the way he did a few months ago. And that's when I started to see the things I refused to see, or even missed, during the times I chose to be innocent and live a simple life.
How was I supposed to know I was destined to live a life far more cruel than what I imagined..? T_T
It's Christmas alright... But I just can't see a reason for me to celebrate. *sigh*
12.24.2005
O_o?
Hmm.. Last update was October 1. O_o err... the excuse "I was busy" still applies. XD To my dear imouto Raine... I'm so sorry. I'll send you new EiC stuff to make up for 2 months of not updating my blog. XD
As for news, I'm still a kitten! When will I ever grow up?? <_< *dry smirk* seriously, I've been one heck of a busy kitten these past 2 months, I barely had time to tidy myself up. =.= It was the same thing with my bro, but he had the privilege of accessing the Net for free due to to the nature of his job. THE WORLD IS SO UNFAIR! T_T
The reason I can update my stinkin' blog now is because someone else is paying my Net time for me. He's playing GB beside me. How charitable! *evil cackle* And I have a very good reason to update my blog, coz something *finally!* happened in my boring 1st out of 9 lives.
Something I've wished for in... *counts with her paws* 5 months finally happened. The catch though, it didn't turn out as i expected. I finally found someone who can adopt me, but I'm too chicken to let him any closer. You get my point? Already?? Good. Coz I don't think I have the heart to expalin any further. XD
As with other news, me and my girl friends got to chat for a while on Y!M.
Whoops, brb. Update again later. X_x
As for news, I'm still a kitten! When will I ever grow up?? <_< *dry smirk* seriously, I've been one heck of a busy kitten these past 2 months, I barely had time to tidy myself up. =.= It was the same thing with my bro, but he had the privilege of accessing the Net for free due to to the nature of his job. THE WORLD IS SO UNFAIR! T_T
The reason I can update my stinkin' blog now is because someone else is paying my Net time for me. He's playing GB beside me. How charitable! *evil cackle* And I have a very good reason to update my blog, coz something *finally!* happened in my boring 1st out of 9 lives.
Something I've wished for in... *counts with her paws* 5 months finally happened. The catch though, it didn't turn out as i expected. I finally found someone who can adopt me, but I'm too chicken to let him any closer. You get my point? Already?? Good. Coz I don't think I have the heart to expalin any further. XD
As with other news, me and my girl friends got to chat for a while on Y!M.
Whoops, brb. Update again later. X_x
10.01.2005
Where was my neck the last time?
One month passed and yes, I'm sorry I was too lazy to update. -_-; I'd best get this over with now or else, I just might get too lazy to do it again some other time. XD
So there i was, sitting in one of the benches scattered all over the resort. I just finished eating the *free* food, and was already thinking of goin' for a swim. Time's a wastin' and so I left the oldies chatting in the pavilion. XD Then when I got dressed and was on my way to the pool, I bumped into my mom, and she had this "mad" expression on her face saying, "Why did you leave me??" Hehe.. of course... I made an excuse that my friend's already waitin' by the pool. But the truth is, I really don't know any of the kids I saw on the bus with me. XD When I got there, I saw my Tito Henry's daughter, which later introduced herself as Amelia. She kinda reminds me of myself in Grade 6. Chubby, short, "burnt mestiza". *hysterical laughter*
The exciting stuff only started after lunch, so maybe I should just skip the boring part. After all it was only a trip into the butterfly farm, experiencing a tickle or two from the resident mama and papa butterflies, and yes, feeling Devas creeping into you. X_x If only those things didn't cost 100 bucks a piece, I wouldn't have resisted brushing them off my ears. @_@ ANYWAY! We went back to the pool after eating a light lunch (buffet style native dishes, with pork lechon *yum!*, and of course, buko juice. AGAIN!) and there we found a LOT of people. Wonder where they came from... All through the morning I never saw any other big groups other than us. -_-" Okay, here comes the reason why I had a really stiff neck. ^^ We found one of our male groupmates, the son of the Association's Vice-President, Paolo. He was talking to one of the local youngsters, Vince, whose parents are workers in the resort. We got kinda bored so we joined in, until a dare was given and I sent Amelia to get 2 1-peso coins for us to hunt underwater. XD Madugas ako at first, then they noticed I was wearing my goggles. AHAHAHAHAHA!! XP Without the goggles of course, I couldn't see clearly in the now-a-bit-blurry water.. and eventually Vince beats us all in finding both coins. ^^;
Eventually, we got bored of that too, and when it was around 4PM, we decided to have the Water Wars. Amelia sits on my shoulders, Vince sits on Pao's shoulders, and they wrestle each other to get the opponent out of their comfy positions and into the water. Sounds fun? NOT IF YOU'RE THE ONE THEY'RE SITTING ON! I realized I made a mistake of volunteering to be the pillar, coz Amelia was... uhh... HEAVY. Maybe she was weighing around 190 pounds. Okay, so normally I wouldn't complain, but I hadn't got much exercise that time so I was having a hard time keeping her still. T_T I saw it as a miracle when we managed to beat the boys, 3-2. Then our parents called for us, coz it was time to go home. Such a shame I forgot to buy souvenirs... the dried butterflies looked yummy.. err... pretty. XP So there ends my adventure to San Pablo.
The next day, as I tried to get myself out of bed, I realized my neck was KILLING me. I can't turn it! I can't even get out of bed! T_T So as *usual*, I had to roll off the bed into the floor, and pretend I didn't feel a thing. And after 5 days, the reflexologist came and scolded me for what I did. She said I almost suffered from mild stroke. I dunno if that's true or not, but my family's trusted their lives to her for almost a decade now. What can I do but believe? XS
*sigh* finally, Part 2 finished. Time to get back to playing The Sims. ;D
So there i was, sitting in one of the benches scattered all over the resort. I just finished eating the *free* food, and was already thinking of goin' for a swim. Time's a wastin' and so I left the oldies chatting in the pavilion. XD Then when I got dressed and was on my way to the pool, I bumped into my mom, and she had this "mad" expression on her face saying, "Why did you leave me??" Hehe.. of course... I made an excuse that my friend's already waitin' by the pool. But the truth is, I really don't know any of the kids I saw on the bus with me. XD When I got there, I saw my Tito Henry's daughter, which later introduced herself as Amelia. She kinda reminds me of myself in Grade 6. Chubby, short, "burnt mestiza". *hysterical laughter*
The exciting stuff only started after lunch, so maybe I should just skip the boring part. After all it was only a trip into the butterfly farm, experiencing a tickle or two from the resident mama and papa butterflies, and yes, feeling Devas creeping into you. X_x If only those things didn't cost 100 bucks a piece, I wouldn't have resisted brushing them off my ears. @_@ ANYWAY! We went back to the pool after eating a light lunch (buffet style native dishes, with pork lechon *yum!*, and of course, buko juice. AGAIN!) and there we found a LOT of people. Wonder where they came from... All through the morning I never saw any other big groups other than us. -_-" Okay, here comes the reason why I had a really stiff neck. ^^ We found one of our male groupmates, the son of the Association's Vice-President, Paolo. He was talking to one of the local youngsters, Vince, whose parents are workers in the resort. We got kinda bored so we joined in, until a dare was given and I sent Amelia to get 2 1-peso coins for us to hunt underwater. XD Madugas ako at first, then they noticed I was wearing my goggles. AHAHAHAHAHA!! XP Without the goggles of course, I couldn't see clearly in the now-a-bit-blurry water.. and eventually Vince beats us all in finding both coins. ^^;
Eventually, we got bored of that too, and when it was around 4PM, we decided to have the Water Wars. Amelia sits on my shoulders, Vince sits on Pao's shoulders, and they wrestle each other to get the opponent out of their comfy positions and into the water. Sounds fun? NOT IF YOU'RE THE ONE THEY'RE SITTING ON! I realized I made a mistake of volunteering to be the pillar, coz Amelia was... uhh... HEAVY. Maybe she was weighing around 190 pounds. Okay, so normally I wouldn't complain, but I hadn't got much exercise that time so I was having a hard time keeping her still. T_T I saw it as a miracle when we managed to beat the boys, 3-2. Then our parents called for us, coz it was time to go home. Such a shame I forgot to buy souvenirs... the dried butterflies looked yummy.. err... pretty. XP So there ends my adventure to San Pablo.
The next day, as I tried to get myself out of bed, I realized my neck was KILLING me. I can't turn it! I can't even get out of bed! T_T So as *usual*, I had to roll off the bed into the floor, and pretend I didn't feel a thing. And after 5 days, the reflexologist came and scolded me for what I did. She said I almost suffered from mild stroke. I dunno if that's true or not, but my family's trusted their lives to her for almost a decade now. What can I do but believe? XS
*sigh* finally, Part 2 finished. Time to get back to playing The Sims. ;D
9.04.2005
Friggin' pain in the neck! >_<
(this entry goes to my little sister, Rhoda. haymishyew baby sis! T_T)
Darn, I feel like I wanna lie down on a bed all day long. Now I know what it feels like to have a neck brace. I'm beginning to imagine myself turning my head 180 degrees like a zombie. X_x It all started yesterday afternoon...
Yesterday, I woke up with a pinch, and a killer head ache. I tried to stay up late to play MU @ 2am so I could try to hunt the White Wizard. Unfortunately, I think I gave up around 1.30, the music on the station I chose on my cellphone's radio played mellow music after another. String of lullabies. >_< Anyway, it was only 5am, and though I knew my hair looked like hell, I forced myself to roll off the bed and crawl downstairs for breakfast. We were going to a resort in San Pablo City... and the good news is, it's FREE! The owner of the resort invited the neighborhood association's officers and their families to come and visit for FREE. I was excited the night before, but then again, I was a lousy person in the morning. I was pissed when I found out I had to wake up early. =.=
So we set out on our way to the Clubhouse, stopping by a friend's house who requested for a carpool, and waited in the resort's exclusive transport. What pissed me off all the more is the fact that we were supposed to leave 8am (to mom: WHAT!? You woke me up 5am because you thought we're leaving at 7!?) and it took AN HOUR to wait for the others. I was at my wit's end when I realized, we were leaving. O_o
Going to the resort took 1.45 hours with minimal traffic. The narrow path from the main road to the resort's gate took 10 minutes. (it was so narrow, even people step aside to give way to the bus! XD) After a long, arduous (not to mention nauseating) journey, we finally arrived at the infamous Dioko Resort & Butterfly Farm. What welcomed us inside really surprised us... I can tell. XD Aside from the well-known butterfly farm, the place had a mini zoo! I saw an eagle, a falcon, a heron, an animal called kangaroo tree (weird name, don't ask coz i dunno either XD), deer, a family of ostrich and a lot more. I found everything so fascinating. After all, the last time I've been to a zoo was like... when I was only below 4 feet tall. XD I know I haven't grown in height too much from that time, but what the heck, that ain't the question here! (Btw, I took a picture of the eagle tilting his head. He was soooo cute! XD) We came to the pavilion, the center of the resort, and the owner, Mr. Dioko shook all our hands. It was cute when he shook hands with the President's baby. The kid was clinging hard to his finger. XD We were served macaroni soup for our snacks. And get this... he had buko juice straight from the fruit served as our water. I was wondering how'd that taste with the soup. O_o And as a dessert, he fetched for a sack full of lanzones. That thing'd cost a whole lot in Manila. It was practically cost-free and trouble-free for all of us... And they were sweeeeeeeeeeet! *drools* made me abandon my hot soup in a flash. @_@
Anyway, I'll tell the Part 2 of my adventure with the butterflies (and the reason for my pain in the neck) another time. My neck's really killing me! >_<
Darn, I feel like I wanna lie down on a bed all day long. Now I know what it feels like to have a neck brace. I'm beginning to imagine myself turning my head 180 degrees like a zombie. X_x It all started yesterday afternoon...
Yesterday, I woke up with a pinch, and a killer head ache. I tried to stay up late to play MU @ 2am so I could try to hunt the White Wizard. Unfortunately, I think I gave up around 1.30, the music on the station I chose on my cellphone's radio played mellow music after another. String of lullabies. >_< Anyway, it was only 5am, and though I knew my hair looked like hell, I forced myself to roll off the bed and crawl downstairs for breakfast. We were going to a resort in San Pablo City... and the good news is, it's FREE! The owner of the resort invited the neighborhood association's officers and their families to come and visit for FREE. I was excited the night before, but then again, I was a lousy person in the morning. I was pissed when I found out I had to wake up early. =.=
So we set out on our way to the Clubhouse, stopping by a friend's house who requested for a carpool, and waited in the resort's exclusive transport. What pissed me off all the more is the fact that we were supposed to leave 8am (to mom: WHAT!? You woke me up 5am because you thought we're leaving at 7!?) and it took AN HOUR to wait for the others. I was at my wit's end when I realized, we were leaving. O_o
Going to the resort took 1.45 hours with minimal traffic. The narrow path from the main road to the resort's gate took 10 minutes. (it was so narrow, even people step aside to give way to the bus! XD) After a long, arduous (not to mention nauseating) journey, we finally arrived at the infamous Dioko Resort & Butterfly Farm. What welcomed us inside really surprised us... I can tell. XD Aside from the well-known butterfly farm, the place had a mini zoo! I saw an eagle, a falcon, a heron, an animal called kangaroo tree (weird name, don't ask coz i dunno either XD), deer, a family of ostrich and a lot more. I found everything so fascinating. After all, the last time I've been to a zoo was like... when I was only below 4 feet tall. XD I know I haven't grown in height too much from that time, but what the heck, that ain't the question here! (Btw, I took a picture of the eagle tilting his head. He was soooo cute! XD) We came to the pavilion, the center of the resort, and the owner, Mr. Dioko shook all our hands. It was cute when he shook hands with the President's baby. The kid was clinging hard to his finger. XD We were served macaroni soup for our snacks. And get this... he had buko juice straight from the fruit served as our water. I was wondering how'd that taste with the soup. O_o And as a dessert, he fetched for a sack full of lanzones. That thing'd cost a whole lot in Manila. It was practically cost-free and trouble-free for all of us... And they were sweeeeeeeeeeet! *drools* made me abandon my hot soup in a flash. @_@
Anyway, I'll tell the Part 2 of my adventure with the butterflies (and the reason for my pain in the neck) another time. My neck's really killing me! >_<
8.09.2005
Pikachu's sooooo cute~! XD
I am 53% Video Game Addict.
Video games are a big portion of my life, maybe too big of a portion. They are not a means of social interaction, despite what I might think. I should just go outside. LOL so that's how it is eh?? Tch. Goes to show I'm following my brother's footsteps. I'm 3 years younger and 4% lower than him! *rolls over laughing*
7.07.2005
A Birthday Treat, and 4 Kinds of Pancit
Date: July 7, 2005
Reminder: Mom's Burthday
Age: Still not in calendar even if you exchange the 2 digits. DO NOT ASK. XD
Today was my mom's birthday, and what more would better fit this occasion than: SHOPPING! Yes, shopping. The weird part of it is, we shopped for a new PC. LOL. It was more like a late birthday gift for me than a birthday gift for mom. She doesn't know anything about PCs except chat, Ragnarok, Internet, AVR, modem, and Shut Down. Exactly those words. XD Well anyway, we bought a new PC for the mini shop I manage back at home. It's our 2nd all-new, bought-straight-from-the-store PC. And it's black! W00t~! XD So now I can play 2 MU-PH accounts on 2 PCs! Muahahahahahahahahahaa!! XD
Setting this aside, we also went grocery (shopping). Unfortunately, my favorite Oishi Ridges flavor (Cheese) was out of stock. Curse those inventory people, sending out an order only when supplies run out! @!#$%^*+^!!! You're mean~ >_<"
Back to the title, umm... today we ate 4 kinds of pancit. LOL! First, for brunch, mom prepared sotanghon/bihon pancit mix. O_o Then for our afternoon snack, mom ordered Lomi from Kamay Kainan, while me and dad ordered Mami (I'd like to think of it as ramen, thank you! XD). And before we went home, we passed by the take-out counter near our subdivision's clubhouse, and bought Palabok. =.= (umay na umay na ko sa pancit! GAAAAAAHH!!! X_x")
I'm too full (and tired and sleepy and lazy O_o) to post this anyways. Maybe I'll put this up tomorrow... @_@
[edit] actually, it took me a MONTH to post this. Anyways I'll still put it under the 7th of July. LOLZ! XD
Reminder: Mom's Burthday
Age: Still not in calendar even if you exchange the 2 digits. DO NOT ASK. XD
Today was my mom's birthday, and what more would better fit this occasion than: SHOPPING! Yes, shopping. The weird part of it is, we shopped for a new PC. LOL. It was more like a late birthday gift for me than a birthday gift for mom. She doesn't know anything about PCs except chat, Ragnarok, Internet, AVR, modem, and Shut Down. Exactly those words. XD Well anyway, we bought a new PC for the mini shop I manage back at home. It's our 2nd all-new, bought-straight-from-the-store PC. And it's black! W00t~! XD So now I can play 2 MU-PH accounts on 2 PCs! Muahahahahahahahahahaa!! XD
Setting this aside, we also went grocery (shopping). Unfortunately, my favorite Oishi Ridges flavor (Cheese) was out of stock. Curse those inventory people, sending out an order only when supplies run out! @!#$%^*+^!!! You're mean~ >_<"
Back to the title, umm... today we ate 4 kinds of pancit. LOL! First, for brunch, mom prepared sotanghon/bihon pancit mix. O_o Then for our afternoon snack, mom ordered Lomi from Kamay Kainan, while me and dad ordered Mami (I'd like to think of it as ramen, thank you! XD). And before we went home, we passed by the take-out counter near our subdivision's clubhouse, and bought Palabok. =.= (umay na umay na ko sa pancit! GAAAAAAHH!!! X_x")
I'm too full (and tired and sleepy and lazy O_o) to post this anyways. Maybe I'll put this up tomorrow... @_@
[edit] actually, it took me a MONTH to post this. Anyways I'll still put it under the 7th of July. LOLZ! XD
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