New Year's Resolution: Die in Peace..? *shrug*

Taking off where I left...

December 28, 2006 - Thursday

We woke up early for the COMELEC voter's registration. I was groggy and felt too lazy to get up. It's not like I'm excited to vote, duh. Politicians are all the same anyways, what's the use of adding one or two more votes? No difference. But noooo, Yobee insisted we go. She left that cardboard with the "We will be back after 2 hours" message, and I was sure as hell it won't be kept today either. -_-

***Intermission start***

Trivia: ever since we had the PC shop, we'd leave that cardboard by the gate to show when we'll be back. The funny thing is, we never do get back after two hours. The quickest we made was 4, and that was not at all pleasing! LOL

***Intermission end***

We arrived in the town proper around 7.30AM and saw a bunch of people crowding in outside an old, Spanish-style building. The COMELEC office. Great. That's something to look forward to. It's a good thing she thought of asking a favor that we go inside where there's air-conditioning, she was worried sick that I'd faint right then and there in front of the huge crowd. (It's one thing I'm thankful for Yobee, madaya? Nah, just cunning XD) COMELEC people seem paranoid of sick girls so they let us in while I feigned coughing (which btw turned worse later!!). After I signed up the form, one grumpy lady recommended we return around 2PM to have my picture and fingerprints taken. Oh well, so much for the 2 hours. XD

After we bought my lozenges from the nearest Mercury Drug (I did say my coughs got worse x_x), we rode the jeepney intending to go to SM City Sta. Rosa. Stupid thing we did was we took the jeep headed for Biñan, we got off at the intersection to cross the road and ride all the way to the mall. We didn't know there was a direct ride okay? -_- When we got there, we ate early lunch at KFC (that was past 11AM). Yobee ordered something new for us: the KFC Orange Chicken. (Ohh, Wikipedia explains it!) It's basically the same classic KFC chicken recipe with an orange twist, and I meant to specify it's the rice. It's colored orange! XD I liked the taste, though I can't quite identify what gave the dish that distinct flavor. Maybe herbs? Dunno. I ordered the usual Value meal #1. Nothing new there. XD

KFC Orange Chicken and Mushroom Soup, picture from Metroblogging Manila

After we ate lunch, we decided to go see a movie. it is, after all, time for the 32nd MMFF. We wanted to watch Kasal, Kasali, Kasalo because I hate Enteng Kabisote! ».« The movie struck me from the previews because of its light, Filipino flavored humour. Also maybe because the movie's theme song was Hawak Kamay sung by Pinoy Dream Academy 1st Grand Star Dreamer, Yeng Constantino. But I'm not about to talk about her. (kainis! Her singing style is so not unique! *rant rant rant* -.-;) We caught the movie around 3/4 of the current screening (Kat and Juday talking in the mall) so it took a while for me to catch the shocking parts. What did I mean by shocking? Let me explain.

Sa Pinoy! (from a scale of 1-10, 1-lowest, 10-highest):
• What are the odds that you'd go out for a voter's registration and end up malling later? 9
• ...that you'd sneak food in the theater even though it's prohibited? 8 (muahahaha)
• ...that your seatmate would accidentally knock over your gravy and spill it all over the theater floor (gravy is especially mentioned on the prohibited list btw!!)? 5
• ...that you'd be able to watch a movie with no music breaks (just a few commercials and previews)? 3 (that is very rare! Buti MMFF, lol XD)
• ...that the plot of the story is similar to what your relationship (boyfriend/girlfriend) is going through now (in this case, away-bati)? 6
• ...that the names of the lead roles in the movie you chose to watch (and it was 4-5 months ago when you last watched a movie at the mall!!) would match your boyfriend's name and your name (or alias)? 0

WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As if by some fuckin twist of fate their effin names are Jerome (Jed) and Angelita (Angie). [So yeah, my bf's name is Jerome, and my writer alias/pen name is Angela aka Annie. Sounds almost the same anyway so... grr!] Now THAT I soooo did not expect. I was almost thrown off my seat just by the mention of his name! And to think we've been having problems with each other since Christmas day.. or earlier. I can't remember >.> seems like so long since I got pissed off by him. -_- watching the movie almost moved me to tears but i had to stop myself. If Yobee ever saw me crying God knows what kind of interrogation would await me when we get back home. (maybe question me outside the theater, "Sinong iniiyakan mo?!" Waaaah! Nightmare! It's what I hate with secret relationships @_@)

Jed (Ryan Agoncillo) and Angie (Judy Ann Santos) at the mall. Photo courtesy of PeP.

*calming down* Ahh, that's better. -.- anyways right after we came to the first scene we saw the previous screening, we left the mall and returned to the COMELEC office. I saw one of my former Religion class teachers~ (so sorry sir, I forgot your name!! T_T) had my pic taken and I was so noob when the shouter guy guided my fingers on that digital scan thingy, the girl on the PC recited "kanang hintuturo, kaliwang hintuturo, kanang hinlalaki, kaliwang hinlalaki" like a mantra. Katakot.. T_T after that we went straight home. I watched a bit of TV before I went to sleep.

December 29, 2006 - Friday

Today's Christmas Party day! Truth is it's much like any other EiC meeting except we had a lot more fun, more kids making noise around us (they refused to stay in the living room XD) and less worries in our minds. We also had snacks after we had the talks, and I'm just so happy to have them back in the house again.

It warms my heart to know that they really missed me, as much as I missed them. I gave Kate and Lai a gift each, and had only one wrapped gift left (she was absent, but I'll talk about that later). They said ever since I isolated myself from the group several months ago (it was over a year ago if I remember correctly), EiC went into loops and they kept making stories with no sense. Pile after pile of work had strings left attached that twisted into each other, making one very messy mesh of subplots. Much of the core of the story came from me, concoctions in my mind left unfinished, and they weren't really able to understand the concept I laid out for us. And they said it wasn't until November (when I rejoined them) that they began to understand those vague parts of the plot that I left hanging. Right now I'd say the core structure of the story's 80% done. Not much waiting left now. w00t~! ^^

A part of EiC's first group picture, circa May 2001. We just played with stuff ^^

NO ONE TOUCHES THIS! IF YOU DO I WILL HACK YOUR SYSTEM AND PERMANENTLY DESTROY YOUR HD!!!

About her, she was the last member of the group I expected to see back in my home. Nope, not after what happened between us. Long story from long, long ago. It's not worth going back to. Even so, I wrapped an extra gift, looking at that possibility that she'd finally come over and apologize. Well... as I said, you can't have them all.

2007 is so near, and yet old wounds refused to heal... (Joey,) Happy New Year na lang. =)

Christmas Aftermath -- InuYasha Movie Marathon

The last few days that passed after my 12-24 post have been quite eventful for me. I found it appropriate to write about it now before I forget them. XD

December 25, 2006 - Monday
I got off to a great start by arguing with Yobee (my mom) about my phone's new housing. You see the night before, my twinkling star (which is now dull, stained, and a lil bit moldy) got caught in between one of the monobloc chair's many holes and broke off, along with the "ear" of my old 6610i. I was really much stressed out after trying to mix and match the colors of my blog with her breathing down on my neck and constantly nagging for me to shut the f***in PC off, that when it happened, I just had to literally roar out my frustration. I was this close *gestures with thumb and index finger* to throwing my phone against the wall or something!! Then it dawned on me that I won't even dream of spending my savings to buy me a new phone. ¬_¬;

So much for a fun Noche Buena. I just stuffed myself down with Hamonado Roll and watched Inuyasha Movies 3 & 4 (since I damn forgot to watch 1 & 2 anyway). Slept past 12MN.

December 26, 2006 - Tuesday
I wasn't able to wake up early (4AM or earlier) as planned, so I woke up a bit grumpy and... sick. -_- So I got up, dressed, and went downstairs for breakfast. As usual I work at our shop and get stressed over rambling kids, noisy speakers and hot weather. But it felt so much heavier that at one point I wanted to collapse. I couldn't even sit straight to stare at the monitor, what more to play. ¬_¬; Around noontime I resigned to the fact that I felt sick in the stomach and surrendered to the lumpy couch in the living room. Yobee came and checked on me and declared that I had a fever. (then there she went on her usual panic streak, fetching medicines, answering the doorbell, attending to customers.. meh, usual stuff ^^)

I decided to watch TV at around 4PM for the InuYasha movie marathon on Animax. No way siree, my sickness shall not hinder my passion. XD I stared in awe through my mega cool megane (yeah they look so much clearer through my specs! *teary-eyed*) when Hari performed her awesome moves (I'm a fan!! XD) with her double katanas, and Ruri with her spear, I guess, was pretty impressive too. (But a lot of people know I'm all for double daggers! XD) Here are links to video snippets of InuYasha: Affections Touching Across Time. Link1 Link2

Hari looking cute after Kirara throws the Hiraikotsu off

InuYasha: The Castle Beyond the Looking Glass shows an adaptation of a famous Chinese/Japanese(?) legend about a celestial maiden taking a bath in a spring and some pervert stealing her clothes. (Wikipedia provides a good round up for this) The maiden here is presented by the movie's antagonist, Princess Kaguya, while a descendant of the guy who stole the celestial robe is presented by Hojo, an ancestor of one of Kagome's classmates back in her time (she proves this because Hojo was a "health freak", and the feudal era Hojo gives them oranges, saying they're good for your health XD). I liked the kissing scene the best, despite feeling it was too awkward for words. @_@ Link

The Kiss (he liked it too, that dawg! XD)

A lot of people know very well that I am a fan of silver-haired bishounen. Kurama, Hisoka, Killua and Sephiroth to name a few (them being demented characters is a plus, dammit XD). Of course, Sesshoumaru-sama counts. *swoon* I liked him best in InuYasha: Swords of an Honorable Ruler. Aside from being glamorous as he always was, he showed a hint of brotherly love for InuYasha by shoving him out of the way of the Sounga's blast and taking in the damage, all the while partly being protected by Tenseiga's barrier. Link

The brothers fighting over the spotlight against Sounga

Well by this time i was already feeling so damn dizzy that I could barely watch, but I just had to see the last of the marathon, InuYasha: Fire on the Mystic Island. Not much to say about this installment, except the Fire War God looks like a girl (he has a fan dammit!), the Water War God (Ryu) looks cute in blue braids (double katanas! waaaaiiii~!), the song of the hanyō of Horai is nice and mysterious (I liked it! Am lookin for it on MP3, help please x.x) and I liked Kanade's priestess garb. (Watch the movie and look for Kanade in the Cauldron, she's only shown once in her robes and she's too far from the camera! X3) The first link is a trailer for the 4th movie. The second is for a video of the ending song, "Rakuen" (English title "Paradise") by Do as Infinity. Link1 Link2

InuYasha, Kirara, Kagome, Sango, Shippou and Miroku with the hanyō of Horai Island

All 4 movies were beautifully made, and I liked the music too. I guess it was worth watching them all even when I was feeling like dying at any moment. @_@ One thing I missed in the InuYasha Movie 4 epilogue (a scene that follows after the ending song) was the scene where Kagome would command "Osuwari!" and InuYasha dives face first towards the ground. Ah, memories. Well, you can't have them all. XD

Ohh lookie! A video of Movie 4 with cool music. Nice frame timing. 5 stars. ^-^

BG Music: "Chop Suey" by System of a Down

I slept the rest of the afternoon and woke up around 9PM. Quick dinner, my dose of medicines and it's off to bed.

zzZZZzzZZzzZZZZzzzz....

December 27, 2006 - Wednesday

I woke up feeling much better than the day before, like I was given a new lease on life. Hey, it may be exaggerating but I really did feel a whole lot better. My mom scolded me for taking a bath XD you see, my girl friends said they'd come over to hold our annual Christmas party at my place today. I sent them a message asking what time they plan to come, but they said they'd postpone it to let me recover. Well, none of us expected me to recuperate overnight o.O so I was left idle all day. I just had to play instead. XD

Next post, I'll wander off to register as a voter (as if my vote would matter! LOL) and blab on about a movie I just saw. I haven't watched any movie on the silverscreen since Mr. and Mrs. Smith! Howmaygosh! @_@

My First Slew of Videos -- Chronicle of the Wings

I forgot to "advertise" the new stuff on my blog. XD First off, I decided to change my blog's theme color. It's (almost) the same template, except I mixed the Christmas colors to make it more friendly. I also took out the old TagBoard and will replace it with a better one soon. And though obviously VERY late, I threw in a counter from Andyhoppe.com to make it all the more friendlier. Autumn themes rock XD

So, to celebrate an out-of-the-ordinary Christmas, I decided to look for videos of my favorite anime series. This week, I chose to get Tsubasa: Reservoir Chronicle (a.k.a. Chronicle of the Wings). I just watched an episode on Animax and I fell in love with it all over again. :D So without further ado, here are my fave YouTube videos for Tsubasa Chronicles.


A Song of Storm and Fire: This is an AMV made by saily with a song composed and sung by Yuki Kaijura. Just wonderful.


Kaze no Machi He: This is an AMV of a song featured on Episode 21, sung by the lady singer in the bar, also known as the [1 oni]. She looks like Arisu Fujisaki of Angelic Layer, except she's older! But truth is, I'm really not sure whose crossover she is >.>


You are my Love: An AMV of Sakura's song, by Makino Yui. Sweeter if we played a duet. ^-^


Yume no Tsubasa: A Sakura-Syaoran duet sung by Makino Yui and Irino Miyu, respectively. OMG!!!11 I just LOVE them! I was totally squealing with delight the first time I heard it. XD


And this one's a piano rendition of Yuki's composition. Gosh I really wanna learn how to play the piano now! X3

Next week, I'll try to look through the other videos and search that song I'm looking for. It's an instrumental with the piano, violin, possibly harp... It played while Sakura soared through the sky before Syaoran found her falling (episode 3 I think). I'll remember the melody so I can identify it next time.

Update: Hey, I found it! The music that plays at the beginning of this clip from Episode 4. Also liked the instrumental of "A Song of Storm and Fire" here. Gotta download anime subs soon. Link

Many thanks to YouTube, Wikipedia, their contributors, and Animax Asia. I feel better already. ^-^

A Chilly Christmas Eve (afternoon blues)

"There's this missing ingredient in the soup of our relationship, and I just can't put my finger on it.
I don't know what it is. Neither would you since I'm the one looking for it.
Just... forget it. Okay?
I know. It sounds stupid."

Maybe it's just me, but I've been feeling under the weather since December came. Maybe that's why I'm writing here again. Ironic, huh? Most people blog coz they have stuff to share, friends to brag to and/or about, entertainment reviews to dish out and all that. Me? I blog to rant, to mope, to wonder... well, basically be the introverted (and sometimes apathetic) girl I'm usually not. Hey, everyone's got to have their moments.

I have a lot on my mind today. I've got my cellphone stuck with me in the PC room where the signal can't reach so my boyfriend can let me mope all I want. I've had an argument with my mom at around past 9 coz her ears can't hear me asking about where she got the oblong-shaped plastic dish. I ignored a mother-and-child pair when they called from our gate asking for Christmas favors. It's like me undergoing a 180-degree change of attitude. I even told a friend how Christmas is seriously overrated in the Philippines. What is UP with me?

... I guess I have less than 10 hours to bang my head on the marbled floor before I go out and enjoy Noche Buena with the dog, the cats, the ghost of the parrot, my three musketeers and hopefully, the panda.

Do you still love me?

With love from California

“Love is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you’re gonna get.”
- Forrest Gump

I got a parcel from my Tita Beth living in the US. She sent us a box of chocolates from the MyAyala.com online shopping site. In fact, I took pictures of it as a remembrance. Hey, it's not everyday I get a box of chocolates for Christmas nowadays. My godparents are so... out of here. Nagtatago! XD

The almost complete, ransacked and put-back-together-again box.

The box made me think of planting flowers. Almost looks perfect as a flower box no? XD

Kulang yan ng isa. Yung Nestlé Crunch. Kaya mukha akong nalugi sa karera ng kabayo.

They're a bit on the dark side. Meh, I don't mind. My blog background's lively enough to compensate. ^-^ Anyway the Crunch conversation went like this:

I was walking towards the PC room. I set up the PC, took the first 2 pics and went to the dining room to fetch the Crunch. Kaya lang wala na pala dun. So I asked mom.

Me: "Ma, nasan na yung Crunch?"
Ma: "Inubos ko na."
Me: "ANO!? Nasan yung balot?"
Ma: "Bakit mo hinahanap? Tinapon ko na.."
Me: "Pipicturan ko yun e! Wave ko sa cam na paubos na! San nyo nilagay yung balat? T_T"
Ma: "Nasa basurahan na sa labas!" *chuckle*
Me: "Waaaaaaaaah!" *walks back to PC room*

And she had the nerve to chuckle! WTF!!! It's been more than a year since I was able to taste that. Fave ko pa man din. Grr grr grr! x_x I know, ang babaw. [[I can't remember what the effin hell I put here but it sure was damn long. Thanks Blogger, for deleting it. I will NEVER use the arrow characters here ever AGAIN! -_-]]

Anyway, here's a lil treat for the good people who tried to research about my real identity.

The pic was taken around 2AM. It's a good thing i even felt like smiling. XD

Merry Christmas everyone. Thank God I have one. Be careful with fireworks ayt? Be content watching. :)

A Momentary Glimpse at the Past

"Whence the skies shall fall,
and the dawn of a new rule shall rise.
From the ashes my crest shall glow;
free me, and pray I see your light."

I thought of dropping by and posting something after more than 7 months. I know, it's been so long. I seriously was thinking of abandoning this again. :P I had this really pesky friend convince me otherwise.

I still am thinking of changing the layout to something a bit more genki. How does pink sound? Though I'm afraid pink might not suit a kitten, with the exception of Hello Kitty. o.O bah, I'll think of... something. Soon.

Anyway, me and this friend of mine had a lil chat, he was rather curious (more like gossiping, lol) about my previous stories, why I posted this or that way and who I was pertaining to. At more that one point, I just thought the same old things, and it's an old list of "What ifs". It's not a healthy list to dwell on, definitely. But one can't help but feel like wanting those moments back, even if you are happy with what you are, where you're at and who you're with.

Maybe in the next couple of days, I can find time to update this blog, maybe even renovate it, and make it look a tad bit more special. After all, my memories aren't posted here for nothing. They're here to serve as my memoirs, tokens of my past. Gifts of knowledge I can share to those who need it.

'till next time. ;)

I'm all messed up again.

Tell me... Does anyone know the feeling of being torn apart? Literally? I think I just felt it.

I was checking my friends' profiles in Friendster when I saw one that really caught my attention. So I opened it. Wow, many photos.. lemme check 'em. ~_~ As I browsed through them and saw the date stamps on the pictures, I tried to trace back to what happened on those dates. I tried to analyze the facial expressions on my friend's face. Then my heart ached when I saw that person's face change from melodramatic (late December) to really happy (mid January). I knew right then and there, what I felt was wrong... It should be wrong. I'm not supposed to re-enter in that person's life becuase I know where that person's happy now, and I'm happy for that.

I know it's wrong to feel this way about that person. Because I'm happy with someone now. This is all so wrong...

Now I remember, and understand what this quote from "Tips on Moving On" meant: Pick up the pieces but never put them back."

It's easier said than done.

:(

Depression ate me whole coz...

Last night, I cried.

I cried for something that's real.
I cried because I felt sad.
But later on, I cried because I realized...

It was real.

A real variety of "it" is rare to find in cases such as mine.

And in the end, the tears I cried... were tears of joy.

After the worst was over, I went to my room to contemplate... And avoid the possibility of my mom finding me in the state I was in. When I really thought about it, I realized that those tears prove that what I felt is real. That when I cry for my life as a human in real life, was being human.

That I prioritize something that is real, over something that is virtual.

I loved him despite his imperfections... I hope he loved me the same way. After all, from what I believe, it is the essence of humanity. Loving despite of imperfections. Filling in each other's gaps.

*sigh* you're so near yet so far... ='(

I cry again.

It's already been a month? Waaaaaaah!

Oh yesh.. summer vacation. One would've expected a blogger such as me to update my blog more often since it's summer vacation, one would expect I'd have lost my workload since there are no classes! But the truth is... NOT! My work just piled up actually. Yes, it's summer vacation for me, but it's also summer vacation for everyone else. So naturally, our shop is always a full house! I might as well be packed along with them inside a can of sardines! (and that is NO joke! @_@)

Now that I opened my Blogger dashboard, I realized it's only been barely a month ago since I last posted an update here. Know what? It felt like a year! (in my mind i know it's been a month but it still FELT like a looooong time) Now I know why they say work makes you feel old (and LOOK old!). I really need a trustworthy assistant around here who's got as much (or even more) computer-know-how than me. At the rate I'm going, I'll drop dead after another month of whole day, no rest workload. (and they say my brother works his ass off? Look at me!! X_x)

So enough rants. What am I up to these days? Well, aside from work, I'm still working on the auditing blah blahs of our store. Too many numbers.. Me dizzy.. me go sleep! x.x errr.. that's what I wanted.. But I couldn't do it.. And besides if I do fall asleep, my mom would just kick my arse and send me back to work. XD (this still sounds like a rant! ARGH!!) CHANGE TOPIC!!!

My big ol' shnuggleplum bradah says he'll visit me here along with my sister-in-law and their son.. I can't wait! I can't get over how cute he is! LOL! I'ma sucker for cute stuff, so what! >.< Another thing for me to expect is my hubby coming to visit me here! He says it's gonna be a surprise visit. Okaaaaay.. that's one thing I'm not sure I'd be lookin forward to. I'd hate for him to catch me in my working clothes.. feeling, smelling, looking like hell.. That's gonna be a nightmare. X.x won't be such a good first, second, third or even last impression. ~_~

Ahh.. what else.. Want me to rant about my online VR life? Well frankly speaking, I'm convincing myself that everything's just fine. But really, it's not. I don't like the way things are going for us and them. 2 groups.. 2 factions under the same roof? I must admit that I'm not new to the scenario but one thing I can surely tell you is.. IT SUCKS! The only thing I'm praying for now is.. well.. I hope our efforts will be rewarded.. We're not doing this for ourselves but for everyone else. We're busy enough just keeping each other sane.. Why can't some people see that? *sigh*

Setting all those rants aside.. thankfully I was lucky (or maybe even blessed) enough to have someone who can take care for me, and watch my back when I forget.

Thanks for being there for me.. Though I have failed you many times.. Countless times.. You kept me going through the tough times.. You still stood by me even when I was about to give up.. You kept my head held high. I owe you a whole lot. Thanks so much dearie. :)

I know this was the last time we saw each other through our virtual alter egos. Even when we weren't exactly in the best of terms, you were there for me. I'm sorry I got you red coz you killed the guy who killed me.. (My knight in shining armor..) *dreamy, mushy look* XD

It's time for me to sleep now.. hehe. ^^

The What's Your Signature Weapon Test

It happens to be my favorite pistol in CS! ^_^

Desert Eagle You preferred a weapon with 29% power over speed and 61% range over melee.

You use a Desert Eagle. One of the most powerful handguns in production, the Desert Eagle is a heavy punch in a small package. Its reliability and speed are remarkable for a gun with such high caliber. Your enemies won't stand a chance as you fell them bullet by bullet.

What D&D character are you?

My first post after a month and I couldn't think of what to say! LOL okay, so here's a quiz from my brother's blog:

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I Am A: Neutral Good Half-Elf Ranger Cleric


Alignment:
Neutral Good characters believe in the power of good above all else. They will work to make the world a better place, and will do whatever is necessary to bring that about, whether it goes for or against whatever is considered 'normal'.


Race:
Half-Elves are a cross between a human and an elf. They are smaller, like their elven ancestors, but have a much shorter lifespan. They are sometimes looked down upon as half-breeds, but this is rare. They have both the curious drive of humans and the patience of elves.


Primary Class:
Rangers are the defenders of nature and the elements. They are in tune with the Earth, and work to keep it safe and healthy.


Secondary Class:
Clerics are the voices of their God/desses on Earth. They perform the work of their deity, but this doesn't mean that they preach to a congregation all their lives. If their deity needs something done, they will do it, and can call upon that deity's power to accomplish their goals.


Deity:
Mielikki is the Neutral Good goddess of the forest and autumn. She is also known as the Lady of the Forest, and is the Patron of Rangers. Her followers are devoted to nature, and believe in the positive and outreaching elements of it. They use light armor, and a variety of weapons suitable for hunting, which they are quite skilled at. Mielikki's symbol is a unicorn head.


Find out What D&D Character Are You?, courtesy ofNeppyMan (e-mail)

Detailed Results:
Law & Chaos:
Law ----- XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Neutral - XXXXXXXXXXX (11)
Chaos --- XXXXXXXX (8)

Good & Evil:
Good ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (21)
Neutral - XXXXXXXXX (9)
Evil ---- (-1)

Race:
Human ---- XX (2)
Half-Elf - XXXXXXXX (8)
Elf ------ XXXXX (5)
Halfling - (-1)
Dwarf ---- (-2)
Half-Orc - (0)
Gnome ---- XXXXXX (6)

Class:
Fighter - (-3)
Ranger -- XXXXXXXX (8)
Paladin - XX (2)
Cleric -- XXXXX (5)
Mage ---- XXX (3)
Druid --- XXX (3)
Thief --- (-1)
Bard ---- XXXXX (5)
Monk ---- XXX (3)

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that was a fun blog quiz. :lmao:

False alarm!

I just wanna post today to say that I've been such a traumatic, paranoid, lil' kitty for too long. What was that again? "Walking on eggshells"? O.o damn those eggshells I really should start stomping on them! >.<

Well.. false alarm. I didn't lose after all. YaY!

*hugs her kitty stuff toys and hums to herself~*

I was honest to a fault...

People say I'm special.
They say I'm different.
I have traits that put me in my own league.
That I am one of a kind.
I wonder how many of those people truly meant it...
Or just said it to make me feel good for them and myself.

At one point, I knew that the truth hurts. But when it comes down to it, I never really thought why. So I guess this was the reason... If you're honest to a fault, it's a make-or-break moment. You either win all or lose all.

Unfortunately, I feel like I just lost all.

Can I press the "Reset" button and choose "Continue Game"?

i miss...

my bed.
my teddy bear, Lei.
my goldfish, Goldie.
my dog, Chopper. (who almost chopped my hand)
my friends in the neighborhood.
my christmas gifts. (never went to godparents)
my fireworks.
my elf.
my guildmates.
my allies.
him.
and him.

I feel so crappy it confuses me. I find myself wondering why the hell am I thinking like this... weird. Just weird.

My world... spinnin' round and round... Did I miss a beat?

This is definitely one of the worst moments of my blogging life. If not the worst. It's so bad, I can't find the words to explain it! CRAP! >.<

Time passes so quickly before you realize it.

And when you lose track of time, you can't help but be left behind.
When you're left behind, you tend to think back.
Think of past mistakes... Wallow in your thoughts and regret.
... and end up never advancing at all.
That's where I am now.
Lost in time.
And there are too many doors of opportunity (and misfortune) for me to choose from.

It's too bad I wasn't able to update this blog around say... January 1 or 2. I sure would've been able to put a happy post. But now that I lost my New Year cheers (and of course, not as much customers as I had this past holiday), I have enough time to cook up something *good* to start my new year as a neko blogger.

Here's a list of stuff I wanna do this year: (these are not resolutions, coz I'm not one to follow my resolutions, it's just stupid)
1. apply for a non-pro license
2. go on a serious diet (WTF?)
3. go back to school
4. beg my parents to apply for Smart WiFi or PLDT myDSL
5. try playing Guild Wars (if I ever get a CD installer, that is)
6. try playing RF Online (same as above)
7. train my tongue to get less twisted when speaking my other languages... say, straight English? =.=
8. buy new clothes
9. in relation to 8, learn how to carry a skirt. even a long one. just for a friggin' day. without kickin' butt!! XD
10. eat my brother Tuna alive. WHAT? I'm a cat. Sue me. >:D
11. kill **** /gg
12. get a life, for me and my brother Tuna (know anyone selling? tax free and all amenities paid for? O_o)
13. maybe find my sanity and stop playing innocent

Errr... That's a friggin bad number. Lemme add something later... If I can think of one. X_x

Anyway for those people who frequent my blog and watch my exploits written down not-so-neatly, thanks. I appreciate the concern. Thanks to a few gracious people my daddy pays to talk to me (well my cellphone number IS postpaid, so he pays the bills, hahaha!), I was able to get through the rough holidays partly still sane. It really works wonders... This voice chat thing. *worship Y!M OMG!* XD

Oh yeah, I remembered this! Another one for the list!14. find my student permit first before i do #2

Wahahaha! XD

About the post title... Hmm. I'm in too good a mood to start blabbering about it. Lemme savor this moment of bliss for a few more hours... ^_^;

(this post was created january 5, i just got too busy to log back in and actually post it. T_T)